Posted 1/18/2015 8:51 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks, MG. I kind of expected this. I had a feeling seeing my mom would be a set back for me. It takes me back to how incapable I was this summer and all over again I get these waves of the fears that I had. Afraid to drive, afraid to leave the house, afraid to be alone in the house, afraid I'd die miserable and anxious. I've been doing a lot better, but I'm just remembering how much I relied on her and it stresses me out and makes me think I still do. I'm hoping that after a day or so of not seeing her, I'll regain some confidence. I'd like to see her one more time on this trip, but I may not because I think it may be bad for me right before we go home.