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Posted 3/13/2015 2:15 PM (GMT 0)
Those that look from the outside in always run their mouth of how you shouldn't do this or that, are you always in hospital blah blah blah but they don't fill the difficulty breathing and pains in your chest are legs that get poor circulation and hands that go numb are the quick out of no where dizzy spells. They don't grow tumors in odd pplaces and questions of why can't I be normal, they're not unemployed in need of work worrying and stressing how can keep insurance to be able to see doctor's that need to so can have true peace of mind. The one /ones always talking don't have to deal with a parent that basically looks at you as a joke,not understanding that the parent is a huge stressor and discourager that always has something smart to say and judge like none other really sick of the fear, worry, stress, unemployment, disbelievers, evil people, backbiters, always feeling hapless, and the up and down rollercoaster of emotions, fakeness,and feeling alone and people saying pray 🙏. I do pray but it is like when I pray 🙏 more problems come and I become discharged, and upset I don't like feeling sick in my mind off and on and my body off and on. I don't like it at all stressed isn't even a word wish I was more financially stable, and I know I wouldn't have half these problems I really need things to get completely better.
Posted 3/13/2015 2:28 PM (GMT 0)
I totally understand all this. You have to find peace from witin you. You are the only one that is going to make yourself happy. The devil wants you miserable and feeds off your sadness. Praying helps if you have faith. The devil doesn't want you to have faith. We live in a crazy evil world right now, find peace knowing that you are NOT alone. I love you sister! HUGS
Posted 3/13/2015 6:09 PM (GMT 0)
Great encouragement from D.S. above!

I will just add that WE understand, and are always here to lift you up friend!

You are a valued member here, and will always find support with us.:)

S.C.
Posted 3/13/2015 6:58 PM (GMT 0)
Dawn we all still Pray for you, it will change it really will, Peace

Larry ***
Posted 3/15/2015 12:48 PM (GMT 0)
I really can relate to what you are feeling, Soulinhealing....I hate having the one day up, one day down thing...you think you feel fine one day and the next you're an emotional mess. It's painful to have this mental illness that alot of people just dont understand and when your life is complicated by things like low finances (that's me too) and millions of other stressors, it's hard to lift yourself out of that state. Each day I wake with horrible anxiety and usually it improves after I've been up awhile but oftentimes I remain in a state of anxiety the entire day. I try to hide it all from family and friends because even though I know I have people who care about me, I still know that they don't truly understand like the people on this site do. And I also hate to admit to anyone that I have this affliction...I want so much to be the normal, strong person that they always thought I was. I know (or hope) it will eventually improve like it has so many other times during my life but as I get older there seems to be more reasons to have anxiety, whether it's finances, loneliness, health issues, etc. etc so I try real hard to find something positive to concentrate on....but it's very hard. I know there are people out there who have things alot worse than me but I think people who are susceptible to anxiety take every little thing much more seriously than maybe others do and we turn all those things inward which makes anxiety build up and take over.. So we just have to realize that we really are not alone, that there are millions of others who suffer like us and that's why I find this site so comforting when I'm going through my worst times. I wish you peace and freedom from your anxiety.
Posted 3/15/2015 1:58 PM (GMT 0)
Prayers for peace SoulNhealing. I go through the same thing. Family friends and co workers not understanding. Its frustrating for all involved. My family tries to understand. Theyre there for me. But I can see and hear how it effects them. I try not to call them everytime I have a worry so I dont burden them with my issues. Friends, well ive distanced myself from most. They werent really there anyhow when I needed them most.

Work, well thats going downhill too. I was laid off the majority of last year when this hit so it had its good points and bad. I took off short term disability for some time. I came back and got laid off again. Got called back and been working since. But this year I got diagnosed with hypothyroidism. Doc says thats whats causing everything. Hopefully, hes right this time. But ive taken off work enough this year so far to exhaust all my sick vacation. I still have 2 weeks left, but cant use them on a day by day basis without scheduling them. Because of lay off last year, I dont qualify for FMLA. I need to make it until the end of July to get enough hours to qualify for FMLA, but I only have 3 points left. Which means if I call off 3 times until then, im fired. Theres nothing I can do, I feel extremely helpless.

I retained an attorney and will file bankruptcy around summer. My finances are exhausted with medical bills. I live alone so no ine else to help me. Talking about being alone, through all of this the last year, my social life became non existent. The couple women I had interested in me disappeared. Who wants to be in a relationship with so many issues? Cant say I blame them.

But I woke up this morning. I ate a banana and felt jittery, have no energy, and dont feel like doing anything but lay here. But God gave me one more day. And for that im thankful. Day by day, all we can do. And pray it all gets better soon.
Posted 3/15/2015 10:07 PM (GMT 0)
Soul, ...

I pray too! I know EXACTLY how you feel, once I started going to church and reading Gods word people are like "what's wrong with you." this world is so crazy. Besides getting on here, I do pray and at first it IS like that... So many things just happen all at once so it makes you have very little faith. That's Satan. He wants you sad and miserable with little faith, but our God is bigger then any problem we face. Keep praying and I'll be praying for you. I'm here whenever you want to talk. I haven't been on in a while, I was going to actually post and vent but for some reason all your post caught my eye. I hope by the time you read this you'll be feeling much better!!💕
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