yes! I'm drowning!!... Its like I try my best to explain things to certain people that dont seem to understand or even take the time to understand how bad my anxiety is and how much it truly effects me.
I tell them how I feel and why I feel these certain ways but I can not pick and choose WHEN I feel these feelings. Its not my fault. And being depressed don't help much either. Its like I let myself and everything around me go. If I clearly notice it how can others not??.. So I reach out to people around me and ask them to be a little more encouraging. Like when I'm just laying around not making lunch or dinner for myself or others just to say "hey what's for lunch?" instead of just saying I want to be sad and making lunch/dinner themselves. I'm only human, but trust me a little encouragement goes a long way. Or when I make appointments and don't keep them and I keep rescheduling them because I'm nervous and my anxiety is getting the best of me, instead of saying "ok thats fine" encourage me that its not a good idea to reschedule ,that I will feel much better after I get through that appointment.
I swear its like I'm literally drowning!! yelling at the top of my lungs for help and know one wants to lift a finger or even acknowledge my drowning!!