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Posted 4/25/2015 8:40 PM (GMT 0)
This week has been utter hell. Anxiety attacks have been more and more frequent, my fears of going out have gotten worse, and I keep having episodes of depersonalistion where things just seem...off.

I've had anxiety before but was able to bounce back with meds and CBT, but this feels so much worse. Everyday feels like a battle that I'm losing. Mindfulness is something I can't seem to wrap my head around.

It's getting to the point where ECT and/or getting myself admitted to a mental health ward seem like viable options.
Posted 4/25/2015 8:53 PM (GMT 0)
Nightcrawler, I'm sorry your going thru a horrible time right now. Please try to see all the blessings you have. There are many who would love the blessings that you have. The sun will shine again, I promise. Take one day at a time, and contact your pdoc and let them know whats going on. Hugs
Posted 4/25/2015 9:30 PM (GMT 0)
I'm sending prayers and good vibes to you, Night. If you feel a mental health ward is what you really need, PLEASE do it. Don't let yourself suffer. We're here for you.
Posted 4/25/2015 9:38 PM (GMT 0)
Just be aware most of us have had the same or almost the same feelings, Peace

Larry ***
Posted 4/25/2015 10:07 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks for the kind words and well wishes.

I'm scheduled to see my doctor on Wednesday, so I'm gonna have to mention that things aren't really improving much. I'll ask about self-admission to a mental health ward and if I could have a neurologist consultation, if only to put my mind at rest that there is nothing physically wrong with my brain.
Posted 4/25/2015 11:24 PM (GMT 0)
I think you need to do what's best for you. If it will help put your mind at ease then you should express to your doctor what you think needs to be done.

I self admitted myself to a psych ward last October when my anxiety was out of control, and it really helped me put everything into perspective. I hope it all works out for you.
Posted 4/26/2015 12:38 AM (GMT 0)
NC,

I am so sorry to hear that you are having such a rough time currently.:(

I am however glad to learn that you have your doctor's appointment coming up soon.

If you feel that you can not hold on until then, call on Moday and ask if you can come in as an urgent appointment, or ask how he/she would have you proceed. I believe just talking with your doctor about things will really help you to feel better!

For now, can you try some of the meditation videos in our Resources? Here is the link.

https://www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=9&m=104206

They are easy to follow, and may help to take the edge off of the anxiety and get you through.

Know that there is help and hope...and you are taking the right steps in the direction of recovery.

Please keep us updated, and know we are here for you anytime you need support!

Cheering you on,

S.C.

Posted 4/26/2015 2:01 PM (GMT 0)
Surprisingly had a decent nights sleep last night (probably slept for too long but oh well).

Feeling much more in tune with what's going on and more 'real'. Starting tomorrow I'm going to start going on short walks to get used to going out.

Hopefully the dread I was in last night was just a reaction to increasing the dosage of my fluoxetine last night.
Posted 4/26/2015 3:44 PM (GMT 0)
Good for you, get out and get a little sunshine, short walks are good. yeah
Posted 4/27/2015 6:16 PM (GMT 0)
Hi everyone. Went for my short walk that I was planning, had no freak outs or anything like that, on top of having a generally good day overall.

Anytime I've had a negative thought that would start me on the path to a panic attack, I've been able to brush it aside.
Posted 4/28/2015 1:39 AM (GMT 0)
Your presents of mind is astounding, Peace

Larry ***
Posted 4/28/2015 4:14 PM (GMT 0)
N.C.,

Awesome progress and coping techniques!!

Keep these victories in mind for future reference...you beat the fears/impending attack before...and you can do so again!!

Keep up the great work, and know that we are cheering you on.:)

S.C.
Posted 4/29/2015 9:46 AM (GMT 0)
Don't be afraid of getting help from the mental health ward. Sometimes it is a good answer. Everyone has rougher times where the extra help is needed. I have had one in-patient and 2 out-patient experiences. They all helped me a lot. Sometimes when we get in that dark place, we need something more than just meds and individual therapy.

I hope you are feeling better soon! I promise it will improve!
Posted 4/29/2015 4:27 PM (GMT 0)
Nightcrawler, I've not been subjected to anxiety attacks but think I came close while traveling alone & was stuck in the back of an airplane. I couldn't deplane as quickly as I thought I should have, of course. Almost lost it. I'm sure I made those around me a little apprehensive. However, I can relate due to years of depression & bipolar & fear of the next episode. I'm sending you my prayers & well wishes & I am hopeful you will have good days that get only better. Thanks to a blessed doctor, I have overcome my depression & the the doctor said the bipolar was a misdiagnosis but I believe in my soul that I did have a full blown case but after years of being on my knees in prayer & having this specific doctor, I believe that GOD supernaturally healed me. It almost seems as though I remember the moment. Take care, remember to breath, sounds odd, I know, but we do forget to do that. Being the personality types we are, I think that's typical. And one more thing, keep your house as light, with natural light, as possible. It's a little thing, but huge in getting well. Nothing worse than a dungeon when trying to climb out of a hole! I'm praying for you, as well as others. You have a lot of support here, thank GOD!
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