Posted 5/26/2015 3:04 AM (GMT 0)
This started a month ago when I exsperience the worst hurt ever, never expected this from this person and still don't know why he started treating me like he did for no reason.
Like being who Iam I just have to get over it huh thats what everyone make it seem like but fact is, I love this person and I just can't understand how we went from being so cool to rock bottom. This when I notice myself getting sick literally feeling it in my lungs, heart and everything cried so much my tears are just in pain not feeling well at all. Been forcing myself to go but fact is this person I feel my soul got connected to his, and this pain is making me really ill and people are quick to say get over it and just forget about him. And then there is one I kinda feel is just way jealous, and don't want to see us get close Iam just wanting so bad to do what it takes to heal. I mean I want so badly to tell this person how deeply this has affected me, and how much damage he has caused I want badly to tell a few people what's really on my mind and how much they continue to hurt me. Feeling alone like I cheer for so many, but no one is cheering for me and have my back like I do when it come to them. Iam hurting and nobody cares I trusted this person and opened up, and this person took the last little bit of trust I had left. And Iam really sick and tired of people thinking it is okay to treat and do me any kind of way, and Iam just suppose to smile and be okay I want to scream just really tired of spot and need things to get completely better. Just done covering up stuff, tired of the drama and envy from others Iam at my breaking point to many years of this crap and it is a big part of why I've suffered with anxiety and depression for many years. I've loss half my life dealing with this, and when I think about it I get really pissed off Iam trying not to be angry but Iam truly and deeply hurt.