Fear of sudden death, anxiety/panic...PLEASE help.

I apologize if this post is long, this is the first time I am posting anything about the way I have been feeling for the past 6 months. I am
at my breaking point, and I just need help on how to cope. I had a random short few months of anxiety when I was a teenager. A few panic attacks that landed me in the ER & constantly worrying about my health, and specifically my throat closing up (any little feeling in my throat would trigger it). Well it went away on its own. I was completely free of the anxiety and panic attacks, for years. Well about 6 months ago, I was watching tv with my husband & out of nowhere had a horrible panic attack/feeling of my throat closing. Just out of nowhere. I guess I had been stressed and had some anxiety about certain things going on at the time, but not at all in that moment. That started an out of control spiral. I was constantly anxious about having a panic attack. I would put myself into a panic attack at least once a day, over my throat closing. Then came the fear of death in general. It's like my anxiety manifested. I wanted to deal with this naturally, but I'm not sure if I can anymore. I am now pretty good at talking myself out of full blown panic attacks, but I am constantly anxious. Constantly worried. The worry of just dying suddenly consumes my mind. I also think about dying in general often, but nothing like the fear of just dying. Then I feel like a heaviness on my chest, feel like I can't regulate my breathing. I feel like I am sufficating. I feel trapped in my own body. I just want to run away from it all. I am constantly on edge, constantly fearing. Little things trigger me. I have no patience anymore. I overreact on just about everything. I feel so bad because I am always snapping at my kids, yelling at them for things that I shouldnt. I also do the same with my husband. I can tell I am pushing him away. I can tell that he's over it. I don't blame him. He's trying to be supportive as much as possible, but I feel like it is now starting to affect his life and happiness. I HATE this. I don't even remember what normal feels like. A day where I just don't feel on edge, and fearsome. I don't know what to do anymore. I need to know how to fix this, I cannot live like this. I am currently having anxiety typing this, just getting so overwhelmed that this is my life, and I don't know how long I will have to deal with this. What if it's the rest of my life?! That's not a quality life. This problem is sucking the life and happiness out of me. I sm not truly happy. I try so hard to focus on other things & block the bad thoughts, but they come in my head so frequently. I just want to breakdown and cry thinking about it. Will medication help with this?! Has anyone else dealt with this?! I cannot seem to manage this on my own, the anxiety anout something bad happening, the mood swings it's causing since I'm always on edge. Please help :(

Hi Stephnicoleex3

Welcome to HW. I am sorry you are going through this. Yes meds will help but not cure it. It really sucks. I have been suffering for years. There is a lot of help out there. Lots of breathing techniques, meditation, therapist. You can and will get through this. Remember anxiety can't harm you. Yes it makes it feel like it can but it doesn't. We have to try to fight it as best as we can. Eventually it will give up and let us win :)

Thank you all. I appreciate the feedback & to know Im not alone. I knew I wasn't the only one suffering with this kind of stuff, but its a little more reassuring to actually hear it from someone else. it's just very overwhelming to think that I will be like this forever. I feel like anxiety has just completely taken over my life, and I am losing sight of my normal life that I used to have. I just need to get a handle on it, I don't mind if that means tempoary medication at this point. Maybe therapy will help as well. I hope it is something I can overcome or at least get a handle on it to where it is manageable.

How would you get a handle on diabetes? you would be put on medication to control it for sure, very possibly for the rest of your life, PAD is not a disease it's a condition and yes you can beat it, if you need med's your doctor will know, if its panic i used xanax but let your doctor decide whats best for you.
Just so you know almost all of us have had those "O crap i'm dying", attacks, stop rehearsing your death
and concentrate on living, for me Mindfulness was a life saver, Peace

Larry ***