Posted 7/4/2015 5:58 PM (GMT 0)
Hello everybody!
Haven't been around for a while, so Im sorry if the post is too long.
I have been feeling stressed but not anxious (does that make sense?) i have had a lot of work, some financial difficulties at home and have been having troubles in my marriage. So a lot, right? But have not had panic attacks as of yet. I have been trying to deal with the stress the best that I can and have been managing ok.
Well, I have decided that I want to stop Lexapro. I have been taking Lexapro since 11/2011, after my dad passed and my panic attacks started. I was initially on 10 mgs. about two years ago I felt I was stable enough to start tapering, so with my doctor's instructions, I decreased the dosage to 5 mgs. I went through a bit of a w/d crisis for about 3 weeks and decided to stay in 5 mgs for a while. For the past two years I did not feel like dealing with w/d so I've stayed put. I went to see my psichiatrist a couple of motnhs ago and he suggested I started the tapering again. He thinks I'm ready and even explained to me that those 5 mgs were doing nothing for me anymore, I had just lost my mom and my job and he thought I had managed well enough. I decided not to do it right away because I was just starting my new job, but I just began my one month vacation, so this is the perfect time.
I am still freaking out about it. I have read countless stories from hell about w/d from lexapro. Also, my husband and I are not in a good place. We are living apart in the same house, so I do not have his support at the moment. But I still want to do it. I need to get my life back, myself back! I have gained 40 pounds on it and I am only 5'2, so 40 pounds its a lot! I have terrible acne, visual disturbances and no desire to do anything ever! All of this should be motivation enough to quit, but I am so scared. I took my first 2.5 dosage a few moments ago, so I just need some encouraging, tips or anything that might help for the days to come.
Thank you all!