I seriously don't know what else to do...

It's been 14 days since I last ate any solid food. Ive been forcing myself to eat but my anxiety makes me feel like im choking on it. I havent even felt like leaving my room for the past week and im seriously starting to feel the effects on malnutrition. I dont even want to bother going to the emergency room since i just went a week ago and was fine. I got anxiety medicine but im afraid to take them at the moment. Im come to the point of losing all hope and have serious thoughts about self harm. I dont want to tell anyone because im afraid of going to the mental hospital again. Im an emotional wreck right now and i cant even get out of bed anymore. I feel absolutely disgusting inside and out. I made an appointment with my doctor tomorrow hoping he can help me in some way. I also called a therapist but i wont see him for another 2 weeks. Im just lost and not sure what to do to be honest. Im afraid my anxiety is going to make me starve to death. Any advice would be so appreciated. Thanks 😔❤️

Hi Emelly,

I'm glad you're reaching out for help and that you are seeing your doctor tomorrow. Please don't lose hope -- I know you can get through this by the fact you are making every effort to help yourself. You can fight this! Never forget that we are all here for you, no matter how lost you feel. We have all been lost, too, and we will help you find your way.

When I was really depressed and anxious a few months ago, I didn't eat. I lived on chocolate Atkins protein shakes. I would drink half a shake whenever my stomach growled because that is the only way I knew I needed food. I would recommend buying some of those, or some other meal replacement shake. Those shakes have a ton of vitamins in them because they are supposed to sub in for a well-balanced meal.

You will probably be able to find the protein shakes in the pharmacy where you get your prescriptions, so it wouldn't be an extra stop. If you can't get to the store yourself, ask a family member or a friend to pick some up for you. Or, perhaps there is a grocery delivery service in your area that you could use by ordering over the internet.

I would recommend taking your anxiety medication. It will help calm you down and get you through the rest of tonight. May I ask why you are scared to take it?

Hang in there and I promise things will get better. Write as often as you need to and one (or more!) of us will be here to help!

-Cat

also i recommend the protein shakes and also instant breakfast mix. i also went thu this when i was really depressed.

Thank you guys all for the advice i seriously am glad to know im not the only person who has gone through this 😬

Hi Emelly

Sorry to hear you are having a tough time at the moment.

I am pleased to hear you made an appointment with your doctor hopefully the can give you some good support and advice on how best to proceed.

I would call your therapist and say you need an emergency appointment and I'm sure they will bring your appointment forward if you tell them what's going on with you regards to not eating and thoughts of self harm I would also mention this to your doctor.

Keep us posted.

Hibee

Hi Emelly

I am so sorry to hear you are going through this. I am currently going through the same thing. I have also had not such great thoughts either if you know what I mean. My anxiety with food started from an injury in my esophagus it made eating painful and uncomfortable it also made me feel like I was choking when I ate. This progressed into what I think created a very unnatural swallow and chew which made eating even worse. I have not ate solid foods in over three weeks. I know what you mean about not wanting to go the ER the ER always treated me like a joke so I have a strong aversion to seeking help. I also have Xanax but I have been too afraid to take it like you are too nervous to take yours. Last night was really bad and I just cried for hours this is very depressing. Its great you are seeing someone about this. I hope your appointment goes well and you feel better soon.

Hey Emelly,

I agree with all above, just get an opinion about having a medication which will specifically aim your thoughts.
I totally know how it feels not being able to touch your food. It feels like your stomach is in your throat and everything stops there. But you really should eat something to gain your strength. This is very important. Nothing bad will happen I assure you.

We can share our opinions about the med you are afraid to take, more than half of Anxiety forum users here take various types of medication.
In the end, we recommend you to talk to a professional to decide the best medication for working on your thoughts.

Sending lots of healing and soft banana pudding to make it easier to eat <3

Yes please update us!

For your info, for an antidepressant medicine to start showing effects takes around 3-4 weeks.
And side effects usually disappear after the first week.
It's worth waiting for that first week to pass, since the help medication gives is priceless (in my opinion, at least).

Good luck

Hey Emelly067,

I know how you feel and Ive been trying to muscle through everything. I think its time to give meds another chance and accept them. I feel that if we refuse them in our mind so much it may not be as much of a help. I think if we look to them as a tool to help us better then we may have a better outcome. I hope the best for you!



Hey AlexaP

Do you know what type of medication you were prescribed?

Again thank you guys for all the support and advice!! I really helped me cope through these days! Today i went to see my primary dr but he really couldnt do much for me just do a quick physical. 😓 so for now im waiting to see my therapist next Wednesday! Hopefully theyre able to help me cope with my phobia of eating and ill be back in tip tip shape! Right now im drinking ensures and trying to purée whatever i can! I was too anxious today to even attempt to eat rice but im gonna take my anxiety meds rn and take a bath and hopefully thatll help me sleep and eat something decent! Ill keep you guys updated on how my therapy goes! And how the meds keep working for me! Love you guys ✌️💕

Hi

I am sure you will find therapy very beneficial ask your therapist about CBT as that is one of the most effective talking therapies and a lot of us here have had good results with it.

Keep us posted we are here if you need us.

Hibee

Hormel Foods makes a micro ready meals that are pureed. Maybe give those a try?

Glad to hear that you are going grocery shopping and getting some food in. My Dad had stage 4 oral cancer and I helped him go from 98 pounds to 115 using this.

1 scoop of Optimum Nutrition weight gainer
8 ounces of v-8 orange/strawberry splash juice
4 ounces of plain or vanilla yogurt
1 whole banana
6 ounces of whole milk
half cup of ice.

We did this in a Ninja blender and it was rather full. I'm in no way a dietitian but I do know my Dad benefited from drinking this every morning. Just thought I would add my two cents.