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Posted 10/13/2015 1:54 AM (GMT 0)
I've been struggling with keeping my anxiety under control for a long stretch of hard road...
I think it's been around 4 months now.
Things have actually leveled off (or maybe I've just become accustomed to chaos) yet I'm having trouble sleeping through the night- 3 am seems to be the wakeful hr. Get up to go to the bathroom and the racing thoughts start. Despite a xannax before bed, despite listening to mindful meditation before bed. Nightmarish work dreams. Always making mistakes or trying to solve an imagined problem all night...Wake up and find my teeth clenched and some of my teeth are aching now.
Not sure why I'm speaking this aloud.
Posted 10/13/2015 1:41 PM (GMT 0)
It's okay to share this here. I do this too. When I've pushed my real problems back, and tried not to think about them, my mind up something to worry over.

It's so frustrating, and makes me feel so silly at times.

I do think chronic pain plays a role in this. I know you have RA, and that is so draining. I am awake, and dozing in and out of either scary dreams or what I call busy dreams from about 4 a.m. on, myself. I'm uncomfortable in any position for more than few minutes, so I'm tossing and turning.

You are not alone.
Posted 10/13/2015 4:02 PM (GMT 0)
WRAS,

I am so sorry, 4 months! :( That is a long anxious stretch and it is so draining!

As JM said...share! Venting is essential, and that is why we are here!

Come post everyday if you need to...

You are doing everything else, right? Maybe voicing the stressors here is what will help with a turnaround for this!

Keep up the coping skills, and come talk to us more often. We want to here from you so we can be of support...it's kind of our thing here! ;) ;) ;)

Hugs and wishes for a breakthrough soon,

S.C.
Posted 10/14/2015 11:39 PM (GMT 0)
I completely understand where you're coming from... I wake up at the bewitching hour at 3 a.m. as well what horI just spoke to my doctor and I'm considering coming off my SSRI for a bit I don't know but since I've been on SSRIsear anxiety shaking and then it's almost impossible to fall back asleep.
Posted 10/15/2015 12:16 AM (GMT 0)
I have all those exact things happen to me. I don't know if you're on an SSRI, but getting on Zoloft along with Klonopin which is like xanax and talking to my therapist breaks these cycles for me. My problem is I've been diagnosed with cyclothymic disorder along with GAD, so I have now been instructed to take different doses of Zoloft depending on my mental state and the same thing with the Klonopin, Buspar and Seroquel I've been prescribed.

4 months is a very long time to suffer like you are, I hope you are able to seek some additional help besides the xanax. You must be very sleep deprived at this point which is what always happened to be during my periods of high anxiety. Sleep deprivation is not good for your body.
Posted 10/15/2015 2:12 AM (GMT 0)
Hi

Thank you all for your kind words and support and for making me realize I am stronger than I think.
I concern myself with so much with my needy family members that I push down any RA discomfort (thank God I just call it discomfort at this point) and the fact that it' been 4 months that I've been in this battle...I had to have a quiet moment with myself and count back to when it all started what episode started it and what has been following ever since. I tend to be a put one foot in front of the other type person and just go to bed and clean the slate and get up in the morning and start all over again without dwelling on anything.
It has it's good points and it's bad.
I don't tolerate anti anxiety or anti depression meds so it's only the here and there xannax I take.
I try coping skills instead and love mindful meditation videos.
Maybe one day I will actually allow myself to talk to all of you about the specifics of what's causing me such angst
For now thanks for allowing me to be vague
Posted 10/15/2015 4:12 AM (GMT 0)
WRAS,

Sharing at your comfort level is crucial for getting the benefit out of sharing...

...so vague it is for however long you choose! ;p

We are here for you! You give so much to others...

...so know that here, all you have to be is yourself...and that we have a strong and collective group of arms to support you, and a bunch of ears to listen!

Talk soon,

S.C.
Posted 10/15/2015 8:58 AM (GMT 0)
Hi WRAS

Sorry to hear you are having a tough time at the moment.

Not getting enough sleep can impact how you feel during the day I have had sleep problems for years and always feel tired. Sometimes medication can cause insomnia so it may be worth while having a chat with your doctor to see what they suggest.

Keep us posted.

Hibee
Posted 10/16/2015 1:09 AM (GMT 0)
It is nice to have a network of strong & collective group of arms of support here. :)
I do have some prescription sleep aids that I forgot about Hibee- perhaps I should pull them out and give them a try
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