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Posted 10/19/2015 6:41 PM (GMT 0)
Hi everyone,
I have never experienced anxiety worst than how I feel today. It is like hell, it's like I'm stuck in a nightmare and I'm scared. I feel so hopeless right now, I can't eat, I can't sleep, all I can do is cry. I feel like I'm going to go insane and I don't know how to calm down. I went to one of my classes today and it was horrible, so I e-mailed my other teachers and told them I wasn't coming to class today, but I'm really afraid of going tomorrow. I just don't know what to do, I don't want to be in this house knowing that my grandpa died in it, but I can't leave my grandma alone here. I want to be around people, but I don't at the same time. I just wish everything could go back to normal, even though I know it can't. I also kind of hate myself right now because I'm about as comforting as a pet rock, and I feel like that makes me a bad person. I also feel really selfish for thinking about myself and how I feel right now. It's just so scary and I'm afraid that it will never get better. Is this a normal response to something like this happening? Has anyone else ever felt like this? Does it get better?
Posted 10/19/2015 6:54 PM (GMT 0)
i think what you are feeling is totally normal.

dont feel guilt because you cant comfort somebody else right now...you need comforting just as badly..your grief is real and must be processed before you can help others..and you dont need to feel bad about that..

it will get better..you have your whole life ahead of you...one day years from now you will be able to help others because of what you learned from this experience..
Posted 10/19/2015 8:12 PM (GMT 0)
Hi T.U.W.,

Continued thoughts and prayers...

I responded on your other thread, so be sure and keep up with that one as well, as members are still posting there to you.:)

With comfort and support,

S.C.
Posted 10/20/2015 9:26 AM (GMT 0)
Hi

Sorry to hear you are having a tough time.

Anxiety can be a real nightmare to live with so do all you can to reduce your anxiety by using self help I like to use Mindfulness Meditation.

It's important to stay positive and tell yourself that you can get through this and we are all here to support you so keep us posted.

Hibee
Posted 10/20/2015 11:45 AM (GMT 0)
I'm sorry that you have to feel that way. You don't have to feel guilty, what you feel is completely normal. That's how an anxious person suppose to feel. You're not being selfish thinking about yourself, it's definitely okay to think and worry about oneself.

Have you ever considered doing therapy? There are many methods out there can help you and keep you functional. Even schools have programs that may help you. Try talking with your guidance counselor they may able to give you a few adjustments.

I understand how you feel about your house. To lose someone close to you can be very compelling and I know how it feels to be afraid. But just as you said you can't let your grandma live alone. Perhaps you can ask other relatives to relive you or at least accompany you and your grandma.

What concerns me most your inability to sleep and eat. You're going to need your energy. Try consulting a clinician, he'll be able to help you reduce anxiety and help you have a better sleeping habit and healthier diet. I hope you get well soon. Keep fighting. Be brave.
Posted 10/20/2015 4:30 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Taylor

I know how you feel and I saw your other post on school+anxiety too. You're not alone I just got back in school from a long break and am also dealing with a great deal of anxiety. 5 months back I enrolled into the school that I am in right now n it was the toughest time ever. It was hysterical and just like you I couldn't eat, sleep or function, just cried daily and felt like i was gonna lose my mind. And trust me, feeling like you're never gonna get out is 100% relatable.
Then I made a big hooha in school n thankfully got transferred to be with my close friend in another class, taking the same course. The condition my school gave me was to undergo therapy and so I did. (I was super reluctant at the idea of therapy bc of various reasons)

I feel my biggest benefit from being in therapy is knowing that I have a listening ear - kinda like a halfway "break" where I get to unload from time to time. Are you in therapy? Or you could just talk to your school counselor if you can. How is school, do you have friends you could confide in?

Pls know that you're not alone and do share your burdens with someone else, it makes things a lot easier.

Hang in there and keep posting here, I would love to mutually share :)
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