Weekly Check In

go with the flow.
it is wet cold and miserable. been to the chemist, and I got my $ back on a lotto ticket. set up new message bank on my new phone number. have downloaded stacks of music on my phone. am tired. update bro stuff later.

I remembered that today is usually the weekly check in so I wanted to stop by. I have been doing great with my anxiety. I am currently prescribed 20 mg of Lexapro and 1 mg of Klonopin 2x daily. The first 2 1/2 months of this anxiety crisis were very scary but now I feel things are starting to stabilize. I have been on the Klonopin for about a month now and the fact I have been on it this long scares me a bit but my pdoc wants me on it another 2 months. I'm worried about withdrawals when I eventually have to get off of it but anyway, I dont want to think negatively. Today is an anxious day for me. Monday's always seem to be. I was hit with morning anxiety that I haven't felt in a while. But I'm at work right now and working on my positive self talk. And trying to focus on the tasks at hand.

Probably just a set back, I have had some stressors lately, a lot of arguments with the wife as we balance the care of 6 our month old son, with our work responsibilities, etc. And yesterday was a big fight and it really bummed me out. I already felt a little bit of anxiety from the day before...I also think it could of been the fact I ate a lot of my sons candy (he is only 6 months old after all so Daddy gets the candy!) and my diet has been crazy bad! I usually stay away from caffeine...but you know...CHOCOLATE is awesome ha ha. And living in Miami, Cuban coffee is great even though I have been trying to avoid it. Sooooooo I think all of that triggered the little bit of anxiety I have been feeling, plus I have been slacking on my mindfullness meditation. I hope you are all well. And if you are feeling a lot of anxiety right now, remember IT WILL PASS!

I honestly feel I have been to hell and back these past few months. I cant thank Scaredy Cat and Hibee enough for all their support as they have answered every post from my most stressed out moments to my calm and collected ones! This is a a great and safe place!

Could be better. But I can't complain!
Picked up Cymbalta to start taking the lower dose again, got my event monitor I've been waiting 7 weeks for, started Metformin for my blood sugar levels, got a medicine to help with my lungs, slow progress, but progress!

Yes, Hibee...

...do charter your private jet for pick up. ..

...and I'll order your exclusive and lavish homewares gift from Harrod's right away...LOL!! ;)

Remember the stress of moving is all worth it in the end...hang in there!

S.C.

Hello all,

Sorry it has been a little bit, So crazy here. The past couple of weeks. I am doing better though and I believe my family is getting back to our new normal as well.

I made it all the way through my yearly anxiety attack without meds!!! So proud of myself. I had a few rough days, but nothing that was too bad. I am super glad this is not every day anymore.

It does easy off everyone. I wouldnt have gotten past my first attacks without these awesome people here, so please stick with it. I am very tired so I will sign off here with a big congrats to Hibee for making it to her new home!!!! You go!!!!

yeah well done.

an island with endless Russian vodka will do me. welcome to the jungle, we got fun and games!!! ha. ha.