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Posted 12/30/2015 9:56 PM (GMT 0)
Hello friends. I wanted to ask if anyone else ever had weird feelings like this: this morning out of the blue I got scared I was going to lose my mind and end up in a run-down old mental hospital or become suicidal. The thought of becoming suicidal repulsed me and made me feel sick and anxious. I don't have these feelings often, but they have been happening more since I started therapy. I've been trying to just feel them and let them pass instead of becoming anxious and fighting them as that just adds more stress to the mix. I don't know if it's the holidays (and seeing everyone else so normal and happy) or if it's the therapy stirring things up. The therapist says these thoughts (they only last a minute or two) are the result of trauma and the contradictions they create in our belief system. It really makes you wish for just regular old brain fog and anxiety.
Posted 12/30/2015 10:18 PM (GMT 0)
W.W.,

As long as your therapist is aware of your feelings/ thoughts/ worries...

...then I would agree, that things often get more intense/ difficult, before they start to get better...where therapy is concerned.

This is a normal and necessary part of the purging and healing process.

The negative and detrimental things that were suppressed need to surface so they can be dealt with appropriately.

Hang in there, and use your coping skills.to get through the tough parts of your recovery...
...and keep posting with us for support. We are here to keep you encouraged!

S.C.
Posted 12/31/2015 6:00 PM (GMT 0)
I will second SC, and your therapist, and say that these scary things need to surface in order for us to get better. It's good that you are being proactive in getting help so you can conquer your anxiety and fears.
Posted 12/31/2015 10:11 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks guys. Today has been better, but I keep worrying it's going to happen. I don't think it helped that I started therapy and then had to take 3 weeks off for the holidays. Besides being sexually abused as a child, I realize I also have a weird fear of death because of a fear of hell that was programmed into me as a child as well.
Posted 1/1/2016 12:11 AM (GMT 0)
WW,

I am sorry to hear of these past traumas...and the effect they are still having.:(

I am glad however that you felt a bit better today...may that continue...

...and try not to have anticipatory anxiety, about...more anxiety! I know, its ironic, but common!

Keep up the great work you have started, and know we are here cheering you on!

S.C.
Posted 1/1/2016 5:09 AM (GMT 0)
WW, feelings are just feelings, they have no power except what we allow them to exert on us, otherwise they just have no home, or place, we make it safe for them to come out and scare us.

"Don't hold on to the trauma, don't let it steal your right now time". Peace

Larry ***
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