After holiday blues really bringing me down

So I was on here a few days ago talking about how after about 2 months of feeling better, two days after Christmas my anxiety just appeared again out of nowhere. It's been a crappy 5 or so days of me forcing myself to get out of my house.

I know it's just a setback but every single time it happens I get the same doubts, this is never going to go away, I'm never going to get better, how am I going to raise my son feeling like this, or how am I going to be a good husband etc...

Also I get these obsessive thoughts about Benzo tolerance. I have been taking 2mg of Klonopin daily (1mg in the morning and 1mg at night) for about 3-4 months and I just hear so much negative crap about benzos I am worried about tolerance and withdrawals and that my brain is going to change and Im going to become this person that just cant handle stress.

I take Lexapro but I am really not worried about that since I have taken it before and it has worked for me.

Maybe it was the holidays that threw me out of my routine, maybe it is the fact that my vacation is over and I head back to work tomorrow. Maybe it's just anxiety being anxiety. Man, I just hate the ups and downs. Weeks ago and on Christmas I was on top of the world, enjoying my family and my son, now I'm a wreck again. Ughh oh well just gotta keep positive and keep the mindset that I have been through this before and will beat it again.

Post Edited (TheKickboxingGuy) : 1/3/2016 7:32:42 PM (GMT-7)

KBG,

I agree...all in all your progress has been positive and steady!

This is a temporary detour, but you can and will get back on track again!

Draw up on your coping skills, and be patient with yourself and the process. You'll pick back up where you left off...

...and move way beyond that place with time and continued efforts.

We are here to keep you encouraged, so keep us updated!

S.C.

Thanks SC for your advice and support as always. And also thanks for the really great feedback Accept. I know the doubts I get are not real. My therapist always tells me to think about those thoughts as being part of the condition and not to pay attention to them as being MY thoughts.

Im back at work today and because I am blessed with a great group of coworkers I'm feeling a lot better just being back in the office and restarting my routine. Hopefully, I get through this setback soon as it's been a pretty crappy one. For some reason my main symptom of anxiety during this setback has been like a feeling of extreme sleepiness, fatigue, and I guess derealization. It has sucked. I'm sure I will be back on track soon, it's not like I haven't been here before. Plus, I have an appt. with my therapist this weekend and she is awesome, so that should help too.

Alohaknown, I sent you an e-mail so we can chat a bit through Skype man. Send me your skypename via email and we'll talk a bit.