Posted 3/16/2016 10:08 PM (GMT 0)
This week has been rough so far. I posted last week that I was having some gynecological spotting. Turns out it was in fact that time of the month-- I was just confused on dates-- leap year and daylight savings will do that to a person :). This cycle has been more difficult than others (sorry to any gentlemen who are reading this) in that it's been heavier, crampier, and over all just bad. Sunday I spent all day crying because Advil wasn't cutting it for cramps. I was tired, dizzy, lethargic and moody. I'm not sure how I'm not an orphan and single because of how I was acting that day :). At 8 o'clock PM I finally decided to take Pamprin and loaded up on heating pads and pain patches and got some relief and slept a good 15 hours.
But, because I had some spotting before starting, and this one has been more difficult than others, I made the appointment to see my doctor on Monday first thing. This week in my free time I've been reading really frightening stories about women my age (24) getting cervical cancer, which has me on edge and at a pretty high anxiety level.
I've mentioned this before, but the gyno is a huge anxiety trigger for me. I've had some bad experiences (all self inflicted thanks to anxiety) which has given me an unshakable fear of going. I'll be bringing my girlfriend and mom for support but there's only so much they can do. The rest is up to me and practicing all those coping skills. Prayers are greatly appreciated <3