Knowing myself - Update!

Hi all, it was some time since I wrote on Anxiety forums.
Sorry, long post is long! ---

I want to talk a bit about my ongoing sessions with the psychiatrist, what we found out about my personality and it's effects on my health anxiety (possibly as a cause).

First of all, the psychiatrist dr wanted to go with the talk therapy more than CBT in my case (though she said she may use it in the treatment part of the sessions). She said that while CBT is a great therapy for anxiety disorders, not everyone will benefit from it.
And she thinks that some people will have more benefits by working with a psychiatrist instead of therapists/psychologists.

We revealed that my problem with Hypochondriasis has a mixture fruit salad of perfectionism, guilt and being raised with the responsibilities (good child of the family, she is strong, has lots of friends, can deal with things by herself alone, etc) and fear of failure.
I was at first very scared to hear those and was shocked a little but then I found them quite interesting. It is sort of like solving a math problem. You can go deeper as you want. The more I find them interesting the less I see health anxiety as a disorder.

I am actually right now believing that trying to treat your reactions for many traumas in life (which appear as various anxiety disorders) without revealing the causes with a proper technique is useless.
A Trauma doesn't necessarily have to be a heavily bad experience. My dr says it can be anything, for a child...
She said the human brain is your most trusted and hard working organ, at the same time it's like an evil person who secretly plans your demise when you are not looking.

Personality roles for people, are very very important. My role seems to be being a care taker, and switching between the role of a person who is in need of care. And that's when my health anxiety peaks. We noticed.
My husband gets very depressed from time to time and barely eats anything. At those times my HA disappears. When he fells better again I gain my obsessions back (my psychiatrist calls health related fears obsessive thoughts).

So like this, it's interesting to see.
You also may find lots of gems hidden in corners :)

Great insights. I have learned too that my patterns of thoughts (and feelings) go way back to early experiences. it has helped to look at them and "clear" some of them out.

Hope

so impressed ..

same as SC Rrakkma. good work, proud of ya strength and self compassion.

yes, you are an awesome inspiration to me. coughing harder, getting closer to 44, bugger!!!

Just 40 heck kid your jail bait, lol Peace

Larry ***