Posted 5/27/2016 12:23 AM (GMT 0)
So I've been under a lot of stress and pressure since January of this year from work, among others things, but mostly work. However for the most part I've been able to hold it together. However today I feel like I'm losing control and have bad case of health anxiety. Firstly I didn't leave work until 12:30 am last night, got to bed finally around 4am, had to be back up at 8am to be back at work at 9am. I'm currently stuck in the office until midnight again, because we have a product release tomorrow. It all started this afternoon when I went to Starbucks with a coworker, and while we were standing by the counter waiting for our coffee I had a bad headache suddenly come from no where. I felt disoriented, tired, and had trouble thinking / concentrating. When we got back to the office I felt really tired and just completely drained. I was zoning out and having trouble thinking. I took and advil which seemed to help a bit. A little bit later I started having neck discomfort, aches on the right front side, can't tell if its a muscle but its basically right where the jugular is.
Now I'm scared I might have had a mini stroke or something, and I have some kind of blood clot in my neck and I'm going to have a full blown stroke. I googled, which was a mistake, and read an article on how a women in her 20s had a stroke from a blood clot from a neck injury. I'm currently doing physical therapy from my back neck and upper back from work. Now I've convinced myself that maybe doing something there caused damage to the veins in my neck.
I know I'm stressed, haven't slept, and have had anxiety issues in the past so I've tried to stay calm. I'm 28, 6ft 225 pounds, and workout 30 minutes of intense cardio every day. I had extensive heart testing 3-4 years ago when I had my first panic attack. I would imagine my risk is very low but I can't convince myself.
Am I going crazy? Any advice or feedback would be appreciated. I didn't go ER or anything because I don't want to feed the anxiety like I did in the past. 3-4 years ago I went to ER 3-4 times before I finally accepted it was anxiety. Its so hard because anxiety to mimic the symptoms of so many life threatening / altering conditions.