Posted 7/2/2016 10:31 PM (GMT 0)
Hi. New here. I'm not sure if it was best to start a new post or reply to similar topic.
So here goes a story and some background.
I have struggled with depression and anxiety that I began treatment for as a teenager in the form of SSRIs.
Fast forward to today : I've had a very difficult year than involved a move, a divorce/separation from my long time partner, and I was dealing with this while off all meds. I have been in therapy which has been very beneficial but currently between counselors.
I recently have begun taking an SSRI (Celexa, or citalopram) again which has helped and have had a prescription for Klonopin (clonazepam) at a low dose of .5mg which I usually split in half and only take at .25mg. It works wonders and has been very helpful at moments. I only take it as needed.
Yesterday afternoon I took .25 mg of Klonopin and then went out consumed alcohol and had a very upsetting experience. Note that I was not binge drinking and had a full stomach.
I only had 2-3 drinks (which strong liquor, and that I remember).
Into my third drink I completely blacked out. I remember having a conversation one moment and the next I have total amnesia. I was informed by my roommate this morning that I was brought home by the bartender and someone from the kitchen and that I continued to lay on the kitchen floor for 30 minutes saying "I don't understand" over and over again. I have no recollection of any of this. It's like I fell off a cliff.
I have been known to have too much to drink at times, but this was unprecedented and very scary and embarrassing and I am wondering if the klonopin intensified the effect of alcohol?
To make matters worse, the bar I was at is under the same ownership as a new restaurant that I began working at 3 weeks ago. There is cross-over of the staff, so I though it would be nice to have another drink at the bar and get to know my co-workers after my friend left before me.
I can probably assume that I did not make a good impression, and I am wondering how badly this will affect my reputation and possibly lead to any ramifications at work.
I am just overwhelmed with regret and shame today, and also so much confusion.
Has anyone else had problems with Benzodiazepines and alcohol?
I'm not sure how to address this on so many levels.