Bik,
Here is a link for a heart rate lowering meditation...be sure to check out the others in the side bar as well...and try a few to find the one you like the best. Practice daily, and you will see a difference with time and effort! :)
/www.youtube.com/watch?v=w87hD6X4HMQAs far as the alone time challenge...how about
joining a group for widows, or checking out a Grief Share meeting? I know you have good friends, and have been making great steps by visiting them...
...but there is just something about
sharing with others who know exactly what you are going through that really helps.
Can you look around your area or on-line perhaps, for something like this. I know some churches host Grief Share groups.
You always have us as well...so keep posting. We will always be here for you.:)
S.C.