Posted 1/30/2017 3:14 AM (GMT 0)
Thanks for the replies guys.
I dunno, I guess my frustration is that I have not been diagnosed with anxiety or any type of panic disorder. Even if a internal medicine PCP provider gave me that diagnoses, I honestly would not accept it from them. I would however accept it after talking with a Psych and receiving that diagnoses from a Psych. I've told every doctor time and time again that I do not want to take a long term daily anxiety med for something that has not been found to be the cause of my physical issues. My issues are 99% Physical. After constant physical discomfort I can feel my body getting extremely tired of trying to correct whatever is going on. 3 or 4 times a year on average the constant discomfort does turn to what I would call a panic breakdown, I just cannot handle it and at those peaks of extreme discomfort I end up in the ER. Over the years this has cost me roughly 30,000 dollars now and I have absolutely nothing whatsoever to show for any of it. I can't work anymore because of all of this and with no real diagnosis I can't get disability or any other financial help and my entire life savings over the last 15 years is gone. Taken from me by a industry that keeps making me jump through the same hoops over and over again, nobody ever listens to *** I'm saying and asking for. "Oh yeah, well first let's look at this and we'll get to that later" but they never do. The Xanax is the only thing I've been given thus far that can at least help keep me out of the ER and now nobody will give it to me or any other fast acting Med to use in those critical moments that push me over the edge. Some people have taken it for 20+ years and all I'm asking for is 1 simple refill, 10 pills...that's it...enough to get me through until March at this point. I just get this feeling that I'm just being con'd into the system so they can take more of my money, time and time again. Meh, I'm just gonna go to bed before I work myself up.
Thanks for listening guys!