Bik,
You really are doing amazingly well. It has not been easy. The shock of your loss, combined with the unexpected treatment you received from his family was so difficult.
You are picking up the pieces of what you weren't expecting your story to be, and that is never simple...and you are doing it while trying to manage your anxiety...no small task!
So know that you are maintaining very well...and that you are going to reach your goals and get to a better place in time.
Your attitude is amazing, and your will is strong, and I have confidence you will get there!
Great work on going about
finding a job. You will meet new friends there, and gain a sense of autonomy and pride in taking care of yourself. It will not always be easy...but few things worth having ever are, right?
You will do just fine!
Keep us updated and we'll keep you cheered on, okay?
With encouragement,
S.C.