Posted 3/9/2017 4:45 PM (GMT 0)
Thank you SC.
It is just very overwhelming. It clearly triggered my PTSD, and I am doing pretty well coping at the moment. I cannot imagine if we both landed in the hospital!!!
I suppose I knew it would be upsetting, but I did not expect a full on blowout panic attack. It gets that nasty cycle going of my IBS which fuels the GAD which causes my PTSD to explode. I think I doing a fairly good job checking and balancing my situation, just so miserable and sad.
I keep reminding myself of one of my favorite parables;
"A young novice monk is practicing and goes to his teacher to complain. "Every day, I sit, I meditate, but I cannot calm my mind or find the center of my thoughts." The teacher calmly looks at the student as says, "Do not worry, this too will pass." Some weeks later, the novice bursts into the room, excited and full of joy, "I did it! I did it! I achieved calmness of mind and inner tranquility!" The teacher calmly looks at the student and says, "Do not worry, this too will pass.""
I know it is geared towards meditation, but at with all parables, I think it applies to many facets of life. I just wish the particular phase would move along with the passing.