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Posted 12/17/2006 9:01 PM (GMT 0)
Hi to everyone,

Well today has been quite hard for me, dont know why, got no clue, just feel like the more I try to relax to overcome certain problems it gets worse.

So after being diagnosted with panickattacks and IBS I got tablets now for my IBS to relax the muscles which seems to help as I do feel better with using them. Just I still refuse to take treatment for my panickattacks which seem to be on 24-7 at the moment and I am soo tired.. I have citalopram which was given by my doctor but I dont want to take it, reason why is I dont feel right taking them and also I do drink alcohol on a daily bases, not much but its at the moment one of the few things that does relax me without going into a panick.

The last few days I have been very edgy, out of breath,  feel like I can drop dead at any moment for some reason, got a massive headache on the left lower part of my head and cant seem to sleep well at all.  its just a very uneasy feeling that doesnt seem to stop, I am constantly worrying about everything and everyone and if I dont and try to relax I feel more stressed, it seems also when I do relax I feel like I am going to pass out or the feeling I might just dont return....I honestly dont know whats wrong with me anymore.....what made my life this way?? I started having this problem of and on for a short moment of time but now I have this on a daily bases since March and it only gets worse...I think if it gets worse I dont know how to cope with this anymore, still got to go to work and take my responsibilities but that alone is already such a big task for me....

The worse thing is that I always have a good time at the weekend and there is practically nothing that I should be worried for and I know this but still I feel like this......

I got the best partner in the world but he must start thinking I am losing the plot...even though he is so understanding and helpfull I feel like I cant be great for anymore when I feel like this..

Posted 12/17/2006 9:15 PM (GMT 0)

you wont pass out from relaxing, being tensed up all the time is bad for you

try to find a doc who will prescribe valium for you

Posted 12/17/2006 9:17 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks but I refuse to take any form of medication for this as I never needed it before and I dont like the feeling I get from them, i want to do it without medication. I never used it before so why start taking it now, it only makes the feelings I have now worse........

I tried citalopram, it make me feel even worse, valium I took once it make me feel drowsy and completely a lunatic so I refuse it. I tried relaxation therapy that didnt work either.........

Just want to feel myself again!
Posted 12/17/2006 10:31 PM (GMT 0)
Sorry you are feeling so lousy!

You're taking meds for IBS - taking them for PA is no different. Plus if you are successfull with therapy (CBT), the PA meds can be for a short term.

I used to feel the same as you, but finally listened to my Mom - Why suffer when there is a medicine that will help?.... and was able to get my life back. CBT and relaxation are also a key to fighting A/P - many people can can manage with that alone. It helped me alot, but I really had to work at it....

Hope you feel better.
Karen
Posted 12/17/2006 10:37 PM (GMT 0)
Hi
I am with Karen on this
you are already taken a med to help with your IBS...I have crohns I know part of your DD
I would think the A/P or antidpressants , ssri's would be better than drinking but that is my opinion
I too do CBT,Relation and other techniques
I have had this since 8 or 9 yrs old am gonna be 52 and since doing other things I am getting much better '..I do take the odd valium if needed


I quit alcholol ecept for once /twice a yr in the last 5 yrs and nil before then since 1979
I am not judging you only giving my 2 cents
Whatever you chosse to do we are here to support you
Take care
Lyn
Posted 12/18/2006 6:50 PM (GMT 0)
Hi,
Thank you all !!!

Boy I had a bad night last night (I am in the UK) and this morning wasnt too great either but I did manage to get into work and actually had a good day once I got to work so I am quite proud that I did go in and dealt with day to day life as Its neccesary. Had a good talk with my HR people aswell so they are aware of my illness and they even told me that on off days I can start later so it takes a lot of pressure off me.

I have decided that I will see if after xmas and new year I will decide to start the medication for Panick attacks if I still remain feeling this edgy. If that means giving up my glass of wine then I will as that might relax me but also it gives me the feeling I am edgy at the end of the night. I dont drink more than one unit a day, I use to drink a heck of a lot on a daily bases but I cut that down more than a year ago which I am quite proud of as that was very hard. Got loads of good plans for the next year which I will focus on. I am desperate to quit smoking as do want to start looking after myself better.

Anyways thank you very much for all your help and being there, it does make it easier as I dont have many people to talk about at all, actually about this subject I only speak with 2 people which I know that I can trust and wont make a fool out of me
Posted 12/18/2006 9:57 PM (GMT 0)
You sound much better! Glad you had a pretty good day.

I still have the occasional couple drinks even though I am taking paxil. I too want (more should) quit smoking! My therapist told me nicotine is a stimulant and will actually make you more edgy (even tho we often smoke in times of stress to calm down!).

Good luck on all fronts.
Karen
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