I know exactly what you are talking about
'crying'..
The pain bahind the ear can be really intense..and 'yes' my wild imagination took over and came up with terrible conclusions..my doc has assured me that it's just muscle tension - phew! lol
Heart pounding is a great 'workout' for the cardiac muscles lol..nonetheless scary though - sheesh!
Smiler and Harry have given great advice
Just wondering if you have meds for anxiety/depression?
How about going to the doc and discuss how you are feeling these days..maybe time for a checkup anyhow.
Take good care.
Maree