I Just Feel So Bad...

Hello janetlee

 

Honey I'm so sorry your feeling so bad right now. Sounds to me like you are going thru the adjustment period of the new med. I know my meds usually take a couple of weeks for me to see any changes and then I'm compleatly better in about 4 weeks. It is ok to lay down and cry hun that is one of the ways to let your feelings out. I have always been strong at fighting all my illness but there are just sometimes we have to break and after that is when I find my strength again to keep fighting. Please hold on hun this is something you can get thru and were all here for you at HW so please keep us updated on how you are doing and the new meds are working for you. If you ever need to talk you can find my email address under members on the blue line above. Please put Janetlee in the subject line so I will know who you are.

Sweetie
Just a wee more time and then if not any better get to that doc of yours again
my opinon
Luvs ya
Lyn

(((((((Janetlee)))))))

Lord knows I've been where you are. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all this. It's very hard. Cry if you need to. Maybe it will cathartic, who knows? Take a hot bath, put smelly stuff in the water, lay there and relax. Light a candle, listen to soothing music. That's my only advise other than just hang in there. BTW, you'll notice I'm not good at taking my own advise. Hope that made you laugh a little.

Well, today I couldn't hide how really bad I'm feeling from my mom any longer...it's "understood" that I try to always act "okay" no matter what cuz else she gets all upset and it manifests itself as anger at me. This evening she told me that if I just had to lay my head down on the table and didn't feel like sitting up to just go to the other room and lay on the couch. It was not said with any feelings, except for aggravation...it ends up making me feel like a lower than dirt dog. I feel more alone than I can tell you. When she says "if you feel THAT bad" with dripping sarcasm, I just wanna crawl into a hole and die. I went to help her clean offices tonite and we didn't speak to each other all the way to or back and only spoke at the offices when necessary. It just hurts me so bad. I end up feeling like I want to hide my head in shame cuz I can't stop my feelings from being evident. No consoling words, just isolationism. God, how I hope I feel better soon but I'm scared to death that it'll never be over.
janet

MsKittie,
You're sweet and I know it'll sound weird, but I'm 42 years old. I've always lived at home and am on disability for anxiety disorder. Mom and I have a symbiotic relationship so I can see how anyone would think I'm a child from my post. I didn't want to get up out of bed today. I feel sick. I am so scared. mom left a note on the bathroom mirror saying that even if she doesn't handle this well, she wants me to know she loves me...I never really doubt that, but sometimes I need a long hug, some consoling words, a good thought...you know? I'm having bad thoughts but so what else is new. I am really scared and am afraid that there's no way out.
janet

Hello Janetlee

 

Oh honey I'm so sorry for the miss understanding. I am so happy to hear you and your mother are together and are both working thru this together. Thank you for clearing this up for me hun.

((((Janet)))) Im so sorry you're going through such a rough time. Please hang in there. Remember we're here for you always. Hopefully your mom will come around and try to maybe research and find out more of why you are going through what you are going through. It's so much worse on us when we feel like no one around us understands. Trust me Ive been there. But things do and will turn around. All my best wishes to you. *Blessings* Julie