Just a worry wart

I do know that in the end worrying about things will not help at all, trying to decide just what will happen in the future is a waste and to stress and worry about it causes me nothing but trouble.......

BUT........I just wait for it all to happen. It's not if, it's WHEN. I know it will happen. DH will loose his job, we will loose the house, go into bankruptcy, ect. That is all I can see in my head. I hold my breath each day to see if there is any news. I worry about each night he goes to work wondering if he will call to tell me the bad news.

I can't really talk to him because it all gets to him too and he doesn't need my crap on top of it. I am trying to pay off what bills I can, and save what I can, but I know it won't be enough and things will go crazy.

I worry about becoming really depressed again, it was soooo bad last year that I just don't want to go there again, but I feel like it will happen and I don't want to really talk to anyone because of what they might tell me.

Am I nuts or what!!!!

I don't know, for me it's not so much the worry, it's the facts and such. I did pretty well today, and am feeling pretty good, hopefully it will last.

Thanks. Yes, I have been able to take alot of steps forward, ever so often, a step or two back. I am better focused about how things are and that I can only do what "I" can do.

I take it day by day and try not to get to far ahead of myself, that's a hard thing at times. I actuallyl got some stuff done today, the mountain of laundry is now just a large hill. LOL I also got part of the family room painted.

For the most part I do feel better about things, but at times my thoughts just get the best of me and it is sometimes hard to get it all calmed down.