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Posted 4/24/2007 9:20 PM (GMT 0)
hey im new!

I have anxiety/panic disorder, at least i hope that all i have!

Its gotten to a point where when i wake up in the morning I am just terrified! I cant shake the fear that one of these days i am going to have a hallucination and be thrown into an asylum forever. I guess you can say i have a huge fear of going crazy! I cant shake it!

For example i was looking up schizo-symptoms today (bad idea) and one of the symptoms is basically not knowing if what you are seeing is a dream or reality, and i cant get that out of my mind!!!

I also got a little freaked out last night when i woke up in the middle of the night, and must have still been dreaming. I was confused and disoriented, and went back to sleep without anymore problems

I am also worried about going outisde, because i might act weird or say the wrong thing and people will think i am strange.

i HATE feeling this way!!!

anybody else???
thanks!
Posted 4/24/2007 9:29 PM (GMT 0)
Sure sounds like anxiety/panic disorder. If it is, you won't ever hallucinate or "go nuts". You'll just be really miserable, haha.

But, seriously, anytime a person wakes during a dream, they will wake up confused. It's definitely not schizophrenia...it's just waking up during a dream! Everybody does that now and then, I assume.

Before I was medicated I got to the point where I didn't want to go outside or talk to others, too. I know I'm strange, and that didn't help. Now I'm strange and I just embrace it. Some people think I'm weird, and some think it's "charming". But my oddities have nothing to do with anxiety disorder. It just made me more aware of them and gave me a reason to shut myself off from the world for a while.

"anybody else???", you ask.

EVERYBODY else here, probably. Stick around and you'll get some great advice for living with this, and you WILL better yourself if you're open and ready to.

Good luck,
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Posted 4/24/2007 9:37 PM (GMT 0)
wow thanks a lot....makes me feel better but i just cant shake this ANXIETY!!!! Ive never had a hallucination or hear voices, but i think about it all the time!! Im to the point where when i hear my conscious thoughts i assure myself that they are coming from my mind, which they are. AHHHH why do i worry about this stupid stuff?? lol
Posted 4/24/2007 9:45 PM (GMT 0)
anxiety sufferers never go crazy it never happens a doc will tell you this

Posted 4/24/2007 10:18 PM (GMT 0)

yoyoma16 said...
wow thanks a lot....makes me feel better but i just cant shake this ANXIETY!!!! Ive never had a hallucination or hear voices, but i think about it all the time!! Im to the point where when i hear my conscious thoughts i assure myself that they are coming from my mind, which they are. AHHHH why do i worry about this stupid stuff?? lol

I always hear my conscious thoughts. Hm. I've never thought much about it. Sorry to go off topic, but it's an interesting question: When people think, do they talk (not out loud) while they're thinking? I just noticed while typing this that my tongue moves around sometimes mimicking the words I'm thinking about.

Anyway, back to your problem. "Health Anxieity" is very common among anxiety sufferers. That may be what's going on with your worry about hallucinations and voices. Mental health anxiety, if you will. Basically, you need to relax. Easier said than done. If we could just relax, this board wouldn't exist. You have to learn how to do it. Sometimes a medicine helps you to get started, but I don't think that's necessary for everyone. For me it sure was.

My advice for now is to read through a bunch of the posts on this message board, and pay attention to the responses more than the questions themselves. You'll find some techniques for dealing with it. Everyone's different and has to take their own path, of course, but when you set out to get better it helps to be familiar with how others are coping.

You'll be fine in the end. It's hard right now but you'll get there.
Posted 4/24/2007 10:22 PM (GMT 0)
thanks a lot folks, feeling a little better already.

I just made an appointment to talk to a counselor - I hope she will tell me im not insane!!

I hope seeing her will start the road to recovery

Thanks again!!
Posted 4/24/2007 11:11 PM (GMT 0)
Great news. Counseling works for some, but not everyone. If it does work for you that will be awesome, but if it doesn't, do not give up the ship.

By the way, I like your name. Seinfeld is the best show in the history of television.
Posted 4/25/2007 2:06 AM (GMT 0)
Hi, your anxiety sounds like it's coming out the way mine started last year.

Something I've always been told if you know it doesn't feel right, you're sane. To become delusional you don't realise what you're thinking or doing is out of the ordinary.
Posted 4/25/2007 2:14 AM (GMT 0)
dont worry, like everybody else you have anxiety.

Posted 4/25/2007 3:50 AM (GMT 0)
Come on in yoyoma16. We're right there with you...which of course is why we're here ourselves...because we need to know that we're not completely unique in our struggles. You're feeling EXACTLY what so many others have. Think of it...at this very moment...many MANY people are experiencing the same terror and fear of losing control.

It can be incredibly frustrating though. And I'm sad to say, that trying to obsess your way out of it doesn't work...otherwise I'd be the most emotionally healthy person in the world by now. : )

Couseling can be SO good. If the first one doesn't work, try another one until you find one you can trust. There are some FANTASTIC counselors out there that can help guide you through a time when you don't really trust yourself.

So take heart. I sure wish I'd know about this forum when I was "going crazy". : )
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