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Jerseycherries
Glad you posted a wee bit about self

Love animals in this house too cats and birds
GO well together lol

take care n see ya later

Luvs
LYN

Ok, my turn I'm 32 yo female, tall, slim and blonde. I'm from Lithuania, living in New York now. Have russian/polish/lithuanian mixture.
Born with defect - hips were not in proper position, spent 4 years in hospitals and surgeries (still remember few horrifing moments and I was 3.5 at the time of first surgery!)
In my childhood was professional swimmer, went to special sport school - alarm at 5am - water practice 6-7km at 6.30am, then school, after school - gym, then water practice another 7-8km, 9pm going home, 9.30 sleeping dead.
In my teen years switched to ballroom dancing and became professional dancer - travelled around the world with perfomances. Doctors was concern that I ever could walk without cane and I became a dancer! My parents was so proud and I was so happy that I'm better than many other pro dancers. Adrenalin and anxiety on competition and perfomances all my life - no wonder I got first panick attack when I was 17 (of course my drinking father gave me hard time too, but I love my family a lot anyway).

At 20 did large tattoos on both hips, so nobody could see my scars - that was my happiest day. I was so shy from them, I couldn't go to beach... Now I can show my hips! For woman that means a lot!

At 21 moved to Dubai for work, at 26 moved to USA with to my future husband, after 3 month after marriage found out that he is on drugs - heroin, he couldn't stay one day without. Was watching his withdrawals and hear his screaming every weekend - this way he kept his dosage low. Monday - he would start same thing again... My panic attacks came back in a more heavy form, I surely thought I was dying... 2 years I suffered with him, crying every day! was seeing different doctors and clinics to take him out of drugs. Finally we separated. He is ok now, we still communicate over email, he moved to another country, went to rehab and found another woman and I'm happy for him. When his plane took off, I was crying like insane! I'm was crying so loud because I'M FREE!!! I wanted to run and scream that I'm free and I CAN GO OUT AND SEE PEOPLE! For 2 years I didn't know anything in NY besided road to work and back (and I was working in the same office with him), no friends, no family - nobody to talk. I was in a cage with mentally sick person. I never thought it can be so hard! why didn't leave earlier? I was afraid that he would kill me and kill him self (he tried suicide once)....

Now: I have amazing caring boyfriend, who mentally suported my all this time. I have big fat cat who was given as adult already - not friendly at all but I love him! I had 7 cats in Dubai but I had to find a home for them before coming to US (found easily - they are all were white chinchilla - super cute!) But in my heart I still miss them a lot!!! I'm a HUGE animal lover.
I was always anxious, worry about everything - I guess my mother is like this. I was free from panic attacks for last 4 years. Somehow got them back 4 weeks ago.

Too much worries in my head - want to get a better job, want to earn more money, want to have a happy family and life in NY is really hard for me. I was rich at once, famous between my friends, I was the example how far person can go. I had strong self esteem, pretty and spoiled with attention. Now I'm poor, and getting older and older and have a very busy job with screaming boss next door. I still have dreams about my past life. I barely can bend now, feel like 55, lost flexibility and I was dancing like a super star - no kidding! I can't beleive I will never be able to go back and I hate the fact that I failed. And I ashamed that I married person on drugs. I stopped communicatin with many people, they live better than me know and I can deal with it. I used to be the best, now i'm just a blue collar at work. I still get attention from people, but I'm shy, not talking to strange people, became closed in my self. I have 151 IQ and I didn't finish my university (now I afraid that I will fail and I have no money anyway). Its not like a guilt is killing me, most of the time I'm ok - outsiders think that I'm very funny happy person, I always smile; but once in two month I just sit and cry crocodile tears about my past life... nobody sees them, they are just for me. I don't want pitty from people. I know I can be strong and I can change. The sad thing is that I'm telling this to my self for many years and still nothing changed. My anxiety not letting me do things. I afraid to fail again. You are the first people to know this.... Actually it feels good to say.. I need a shrink

Okay, so I'm eighteen and have been living with Crohn's Disease since I was eleven. I'm going to college in the fall in order to study to become a Spanish translator. My favorite animal is the cat (I have seven). In my free time I write poetry and fiction, I listen to music, and I read books a lot. My favorite food is pizza. I haven't grown since I was twelve. My nickname is Faye.

Silver
Thanks for sharing
I too am a Crohnie so I know how you feel about many things I hope you will come to this forum as well as CD forum to get support and caring

LYN



******** HAVE to start a # 2 for this soon.......****************

I guess its about time for me EH

 

Born in Ontario Canada .........Native Canadian and proud of it .......

 

I have 2 children that are both here still with me and I lost my son Courtney at 6 yrs of age many yrs ago but the pain doesnt go away .........

 

My Cait is a beautiful and smart young lady that has EMPATHY and for this I am so proud

She won many awards at ger grad the other night

She was Valedictorian

English Award

High All around Honors

Profieniecy Award

 

She is my pride and joy......

She does have a step sister....... Normalsnofun....which she looks up to and admires to no end ........that too I am very glad for

She is going to become a Vet and has her University already picked out.....Guelph Uni ..best for Vet's and will be doing work with a Veteranarian this sumer and also grooming and helping in stalls where she takes her riding lessons..........

Cait is definitely n "A" personality and does get her dreams and goals reached ..no matter how sick I might be I give her FULL and TOTAL support at home and she can talk to her big sis at anytime .........

Cait will be something in this LIFE I know it and feel it in my heart and I will back her 110% in any endeavor

 

 

My son rick is 32 yrs old now lost his dad when he was just 4 to a car accident ..alcohol involved

He has 2 beautiful kids one Kyle and the other Kassidy ..........they are not the most well behaved kids but at least he does try .......his wife doesnt do anything with them at all but scream at them it breaks my heart

She is not herself eating pain meds like Candy and thats not good at all

 

Courtney was a special and loving child all the while he was with me and he developed Pneumonia and lungs collapsed he was gone from me in no time ...I held him for a couple hours before and after his death.........

He is missed yet he is never ever out of my heart.......He was so special God Needed him thats how I deal and dealt with it

 

I have worked all my life as a RN and charge nurse as well owned my own retirement home for a few yrs till I got too sick and that broke my heart having to let it go and the ppl too

Years ago I was an avid alcoholic and practised EVERYDAY........

I dont drink now cept for one at the Bikers Pig Roast every yr

I have been out of the booze since 79

I am 53 feel like 93 some days and then 23 other days

MY life is an open book you have questions ask me

I have suffered with A/P since 8 9 yrs old ......

Have crohns and Pyoderma Gangrenosum as well as other things I dont bring to forum ...YET.......I will I need time .........

I have lost one hubby in 79 and Caits dad died in 2003 from drinking heavily and complications from insulin dependant diabetes

I did have a man I worship Howie BUT I felt I was a burden on him so I and he decided it was time for a seperation for a bit

I believe It was the right thing to do and I know he will always be in my heart and to CAIT that is her DAD her Father......... 

 

I lost Mom a yr ago March on the same day I buried Rick.......coincidence??

I had been looking after her and dad for some time she had Alzheimers and now Dad has it

 

I will not put him in a home EVER......He never let me go w/o why would I let him''

 

SOME ppl have to put there loved ones in NH I understand that BUT I can do all he needs to ahve done with Caits help .........

 

OKay

I have rambled on enough

JUST one more thing

 

I have an adopted daughter who I am so proud of and she is doing awesome

you all know her as Normalsnofun........she is engaged and is so happy .....so am I she could not have gotten a better man IMHO

 

THere will be lotsa tears in Jersey...have to come from Canader EH lol to see her and watch with pride and she takes that walk ..........

 

I have met many great friends too many to list just know all art in my heart......lil sis .....dave.....debaser........sunshine  Bear Victoria,Maree Des,,,,on and on .....

Dont be offended if I left you out please .......LIKE i said way to many to mention

 

KK

WHO IS NEXT ...........

 

God BLess

LYN

Hi, I'm Sarah.  I am 38 years old, married and have 3 boys.  Ethan is 9 and loves the outdoor, nature, playing in the creek and football.  Jacob is 8, very creative, loves school and enjoys baseball.  Samuel is 6 and is also an outdoors kid, enjoys baseball and football, loves to draw and write and is very affectionate with his mom.  When my friends ask me if they can have him...no way he is the only sweet one I have left !  (JK)  My husband, Jack, is truly a kid at heart himself, so he is a great dad.  We've had our tough times, but we've come out on top of the mountain.  I consider him my best friend and he has been unbelievably supportive throughout my struggles with anxiety and panic.  He has never dealt with these issues, so I know it must be difficult to understand.  We have been married for 10 and 1/2 years.

We live outside of Atlanta, GA.  I have taught elementary school for 10 years (took 5 years off when the boys were babies).  I have made the decision not to go back in the fall.  My boys really need me more as they get older and I had no patience left at the end of a day with 20 other kids!  I'm excited for the opportunity because I really feel God leading me to other avenues...soemthing more creative...writing, decorating...my heart is so much more into those types of things.  Speaking of decorating, I have been invited to be a part of a missions group that is going to prepare spaces in need of restoration, that will serve as meeting places for those who don't have a place to worship.  I'm so excited about the opportunity!

I found this forum because I deal with major health anxiety and it came up in a google search when I was self-diagnosing my latest terminal disease .  I lost my mom when I was 15 to cancer and watched the disease in her from the time I was 10.  I suppressed all of this and my body has been trying to release all of this emotion and it's been coming out in the form of anxiety.  I have found a wonderful counselor who is "digging deep", which is what I really need.  My brother is in jail and wants me to help his sentence be reduced and I can't go there.  This also causes me anxiety because of the associated guilt.  My home was robbed a couple of months ago and all of the jewelry that my mom left for me is gone.  My house was completely ransacked and it left my boys fearful.  Sooooo, now that you've heard all of my rambling (I'm bad about this)...I am working on living for each day.  Replacing fears with praise and positive thinking and releasing my anxiety.  I'm happy I found HW and enjoy checking in with how each of you are.  Sorry for such a long posting!  Have a blessed day!

septembergirl

September Girl,

Thank you for sharing, and I believe you have made a wise choice for you to stay home with your boys.

I am so sorry you lost your Mom at such a young age. Your brother, well I have learned that guilt is a wasted emotion...so throw that out the window, you did nothing wrong so you don't need to feel guilty.

So glad your with us.

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H.I.P.



Your sharing of your life with us was wonderful. I have a granddaughter with Aspergers so I understand that disease and it is difficult at times but I know that these children can be very loving and need the extra hugs so badly.



Sounds like your improving and that you have accepted the swallowing and continue to deal well with it. Kudos to you.

Stay with us.

Welcome and thanks all for sharing

I know this site will help you with your anxiety and the ppl are the best
Keep coming back and posting and getting the support you need
will be praying that you do conceive your baby whilst away on trip
Take care all
Welcoem aboard

Starting a Part 2 top this thread so we can meet and welcome all the new Members

Please post your stuff here that you would like to share with us .......

I mean on number 2 .....lol
Thanks

Hi everyone. I am a 47 year old woman with a 25 year old son from a previous marriage. I am remarried and have been married to this wonderful man for 14 years now. I love the beach, and speaking of the one who likes collecting postcards of their old hometown Panama City, FL. That is where my husband and I will be for vacation in two and a half weeks. Cannot wait. That is our favorite beach spot even though it is more like Destin now. Hate that the mom and pop feel has gone out the door. I like to read romance books and ghost story books. Love watching Ghost Hunters on the SCI FI channel on Wednesday nights and like watching Ghost Whisperer on Friday nights. And I also love the original CSI. I am a Office Coordinator for a small nonprofit office here in Memphis that helps people that stutter. We have 6 employees. But help people worldwide. I have worked for the company for 6 years come November. I like my job and the people I work with, well, most of them anyway. I like to canoe, walk, ride waverunners and ride scooters, all of which we plan on doing at the beach this year. I am a lighthouse fanatic. I collect lighthouses and would love to take the Florida lighthouse driving tour if I had about two weeks I could take at one time. Favorite foods are pizza and Mexican food as long as it is not so spicy it eats my guts out. And of course, Memphis is the home of the best barbecue so that is another one of my fave foods. I like Chinese food also. I love colder weather. I love fall and winter. Hate the near 100 degree temps which we have had to deal with this summer. And I love snow, which we hardly ever get. It always goes just North of us or just South of us most winters. I am a huge dog lover of black labs and springer spaniels. We had two dogs for a total of 15 years. Our other dog just passed away back in early April at the age of 13, his momma died in 2005 and was near 13 herself. So I'm having to find other ways to enjoy myself after work as I have no pet to greet me anymore, and even though there is a void, I need some time from taking care of another dog, as both our dogs had cancer and diabetes. Alot of my anxiety this time came about upon our dog getting sick back in March and dying, and I guess I have not totally gotten over it. We had him from birth. Oh well, I have written a book.

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Dear AtWitsEnd

Thank you for sharing with us.  Another dog lover, nice to meet you.  I have 2 Dobermans and one is old and not well but she keeps on going and I hug her all the time. I am sorry for the loss of your pets.

Off to the beach soon, I hope you have a wonderful time.

Again thank you and please stay with us.

Welcome eveie! Nice to have you on the forum. I am working with a woman who had breast cancer and is doing very well. Only had to have a small area removed but did have to have all lymph nodes under that one arm removed but I do not believe it was in her lymph nodes that I recall, they just didn't want it to have a chance to spread to that location and she has gone through her chemo and radiation and is doing great. I wish the same for you. Stay with us and post more.

Thanks for sharing with us ..........

Be well and enjoy your youth ..........

LYN