Morning anxiety...I know I have talked about this before...sorry.

You pretty much nailed the way mornings are for me! It is a symptom of the AP. I can even tell that I am pretty anxious all night. I wake up alot and just to turn over and fall asleep. My pdoc told me that it has to do with the anxiety just being right under the surface. Even thought we sleep we still play the anxious games in our mind. It also means were never getting into good deep sleeps. Of course that just makes you tired and anxious throught the day. Its a vicous cycle.

My anxiety right now centers around work. I know it will get better soon, as I am looking for a new job and have had some interviews. Ive got to fly from Raleigh to Ohio on Tuesday for a 2nd interview with the company executives. I hate interviews, but I know its necessary to help out my situation. I feel good about this one, because the local interview went well especally considering they are wanting to fly me up to meet they big cheeses. I am sure I will be anxious as hell until its over. But I think this was the perfect week for the advice my pdoc gave. He said: "Your current job is a situation you cant control. So concentrate on the things you can. Like interviewing and reviewing your options".

Anyway I know the morning jitters! The options are: medicate, learn the coping mechanisms to deal with ap, and remove the thing causing you the anxiety. Easy right!!! Thats why were all here, trying to do those things. The best advice I can give you is believe in yourself! You can make things better over time! We all have it in use to learn to control the a/p!

I am the same way. I actually dread going to bed, even though I was so exhausted all day long, because I know I will feel so bad when I wake up. The less sleep I get the worse it is usually. But, if I had to get enough sleep to wake up feeling good I would never wake up! I don't take medication or anything, but I try to motivate myself. I feel horrible before opening my eyes. Evern after I have gotten up. When I get up I turn on all the lights. Light stimulates the brain to get moving. Then, I turn the radio on to some music I enjoy. It helps to keep my mind from wondering. I always try not to think about everything I have to do that day because that wil make me sick. I try to take it one thing at a time. If my mind starts to slip and wonder, I try thinking about something good that happened the day before or week, etc. I always some anxiety no matter what I do to keep it away, but those are things I do to try to keep it low.

Maybe you can try it. I get up at 6:20 every morning for school. So, I know al about getting up early. I get up the same time everyday and go to sleep the same time as well. This keeps my body in a routine and it helps a lot with my anxiety. Getting enough sleep makes a huge difference too. Even an hour can make a HUGE impact on how I feel one day.

So, make sure you get enough sleep. And maybe try some things that will get you in a happy mood like listening to music or something. Just something that wakes up and gets your mind on something. I know if I had to wake up and do house work my mind would probably wonder. Try doing something you enjoy first thing. It helps me.

Anyways, I hope this helps. Good luck and take care!

I also get morning anxiety though not every day. If I wake with it I know the day isn't going to be that good, if I wake up feeling normal than the chances are I can handle the day.

I get like this a lot too! I often have dreams that wake me in a total anxious state----fired from my job, people not talking to me, my DH leaving me, me dying, me failiing my children in some way, me not being able to find my way home from somewhere, me forgetting my phone number or how to dial "911" for some 'emergency', etc.... A LOT of 'failure' type dreams!

I wake up weepy and almost dreading getting out of bed! Having the kids back to school has helped b/c it forces me to have to wake up early---whereas, in the summer----I wouldn't get out of bed until 9-10 a.m., and the kids would be hanging out with me. I would use the excuse, "It's Mommy's summer too--" altough it was really b/c of my anxiety!

I also find if I don't sleep welll, then I feel worse!

I listen to music to help---and getting my day going takes my mind off of it......

I totally understand how you feel----I don't take anything right now for anxiety (b/c lexipro and celexa didn't seem to work for me)---I do take Klonopin 1 mg as needed, but I usually wait until late afternoon b/c it makes me sleepy!

SIGH---I hope you are OK--and post anytime---I like seeing that I'm not the only experiencing this......

HaHa. It is possible! I get that alot! That's good that you go to bed the same time. I never did that before. But, since school has started back I put myself on a schedule to go to bed and wake up the same time. I did good the first few weeks. But, then I realized I wasn't feeling so horrible in the morning and thought 'maybe I can go to bed just a little later'. BIg mistake! Going to bed even an hour later than I started with made me feel so horrible the next day. Just an hour make a world of difference in how I feel! Thats amazing!

As for the house cleaning. If I could get up and do housework instead of go to school, I would choose housecleaning any day!! My mom complains about having to do housework all day, but I would switch places with her anyday! She can go to school and handle that if she wants. I hate it! I actually enjoy cleaning. I get in this mood a lot where I clean everything!! I change my room around at least once a month. My stuff has been on every wall in every different way, but I have never put everything in the same place twice! I get bored with it being the same way! I change stuff around ALOT! Its crazy, but I can't help it!

Anyways, I am ranting, sorry! I hope you are feeling better today...and take care!

HI there

I believe many........... self included have what they label" Anticipatory Anxiety" in the am's and other times of days and it make some sense in my scenario anyways ..............

If I wake up DREADING what the day is going to turn out like .......it usually does .......lol

I know that my am's are not the greatest due to the crohns but I do TRY so hard now to get appropraiate amount of sleep and wake up alot more positive than I use to
I was horrid when is was raing or gloomy outside ......my whole day was just like the dang weather

I am making alot of progress thru POSITIVE attitude and thinking .........CBT and knowing that I dont want to feel like crap all day..............

I moved brought Dad up here with me set him up in place close by and have restarted my life .....I had too I was literally fading in and out of severe Depression and breaking out in sores constantly ......I would look for Mom every where I was in that small town think of her all the time ya know .......and cry so much as I really miss her and I see Dad going the same way she did ........
I know I am rambling here but I do believe that my positivity ,sleep and determination to get out and back to work has made me feel 75% better already and its been just over a month so ............

I do wish you all the best in whatever you try to do hun to get out of this and all of you others as well .......I know I did it and I am sure you's can too ............WE are here for you all ..........

LYN

** BTW.......dont 4get to post and let us know how it went with PDOC k

I am thrilled about how many of you guys took the time to answer me. Thank you all so much!

I go tomorrow morning for what they are calling the intake process. I will post with how that goes. I am nervous about this intake thing...prolly since I am not certain what to expect. Plus, she said it could take up to 2 hours.

I had a pretty bad day today. I was just very cranky...not even sure why. Grr.

Again though, thanks to you all for such great support!!!

(((((HUGS)))))

Thanks Lyn. You are truly one of the greatest, most caring people I know! I love the support!

I go for my PDOC intake in about an hour and a half. I am sitting here right now eating a bagel and drinking some orange juice. I figured coming here to HW would be a great way to unwind a bit before going. I am a little nervous, but that is only because I have no clue what I am walking into. I know all will go well.

Lyn, yes, I do feel you on my shoulder, and I appriciate you letting me borrow you like that!

I will post when I come back and let you guys know how things went!

Thanks for the support!