Where Would You Like To See Self In 6 mths from NOW..........

.........I just thought this might be a good question to put forth for all that would like to answer...........''

 

ME...........I want to be able to have my full life back although I know I will have to fight the fight of my life

 I want to take Caitlyn places she has never been and take her to the University of Guelph to show her where her Momma went

"I want to go out shopping and laughing with her not panicking everythime we go out it is no fun at all as most know............

 

I want to still be working and maybe more hours if I can get the Crohns to go with plans lol

 

I want to continue to support and care for all the members on here ...........some I have known alot longer and am closer too but that wont stop my support ............  

 

 I want ppl to FINALLY (Those that do not have this DD)..........get what this Anxiety can do to us and not feed into it as many do and the guilt I have ya know for feeling like this alot

 I want all of you to ACHEIVE what you set out to do and I as well as all others  will be in the background supporting each and all

 

I would also like to see more "WE CAN DO" threads and "WE DID IT" threads here

 

SOOOOOOOOOOOOO many of you have come so bleeding far but like myself you dont see it so hows about we start to see it and realize that .......ACKNOWLEDGE our Reaching the goals

WE have ANXIETY.......it does not have us ................and FIGHT the fight with your HW family at your side

 

HOW BOUT ANY OF YOU"S....Care to share.........

 

LYN

Great Idea for a thread Lyn...........you go Big Sis, Yehaaaaaaaa

In six months from now I would like to see myself more accepting and comfortable with who I am, to be more forgiving of myself when I have set backs and to believe in me.

I want to be able to see more of my children and to spend quality time with them not  allowing myself to  let anxiety kick in preventing me from enjoying myself.

I would love to feel like I have become a part of the Healing Well family, as I sometimes feel like I don't exist and the old "feel sorry for myself " kicks in which snowballs into tears of loneliness. So I would like to feel more secure in who I am and that I am ok.

I would like to reread Who Moved My Cheese?" by Spencer Johnson, MD.

I would love to travel more and find one person that I could consider my best friend to share my feelings with.

I want to see Cher in concert, and the Broadway Musicals, Hairspray and Chicago.

I want to play with my grandchildren and be close to each of them as to be able to hug them and tell them in person how much I love them.

I want to see my husband's health stay well and no flare of his Crohn's but if it does, I want to see me deal with it in a positive way and support him as he has supported me so much through all of our marriage.

I want to see each of you find peace and happiness.

Blessings to all..................share with us your dreams and your goals.

Hugs to all

 MY LIL SIS.............

YOU have been and are part of this family since the day you first posted

 

YOU are loved and adored as well as admired by all here ............no more than I admire and love you though ...........

 

YOU have to get out of this you really do sis

No one wants to hear that you " feel " at times you are not part of this family

 

YOU have helped it grow and have helped soooooooooo many including me

 YOU ...........dont want me to come kiss you in the gasket do you ......??

I love your other plans and I know you will acheive them...........you are a strong beautiful Lady and we NEED you to know we all love and care about you ..........all of you

LOVE you tons

BIG SIS 

Thanks for the support guys...you guys are AMAZING too!

Oh, I have to think about this:

1) I want to be pain free in my abdomin (the entire GI tract)--and have my problems be minor

2) I want to eat Pizza (b/c I can't right now)

3) I want to be active again like I was before this "schtuff" happened (like go work out and not be in pain)

4) I want to be planning a trip for our family---either in the spring or summer

5) I want to be able to spend time with my children--and not be lying on the couch b/c my back or GI tract hurts too much to do anything.....

6) I want to NOT CARE what other people think about me------if I cry, have an opinion, or disagree with others........

7) I WANT TO FEEL BETTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's not too much to ask---is it? :)

Working again

Free of meds

Free of A/P (I know it will take a lot of work)

Maybe start a family

Not worry so much (which I have started to do thanks to CBT)

Be more relaxed

Would LOVE to see ALL of us better with our A/P

LYN, this is a wonderful thread.  Thanks for always being so kind and caring to all of us!

KITT, you are our family.  Don't make me get mad lol!!!

Your an inspiration to all of us. 

The 2 of you are always here for us.

Everyone on this board is thoughtful and an inspiration.

I could go on and on, but I don't want to get all moosheyyyyyy!

Hugs

Mary

 

THanks all for sharing in this thread

I BELIEVE you will all acheive your gaols with the support and the inner strength you's all have

I have said Kitt and Dave and I have seen the growth the changes in sooooo manyy of you it is unbelievable ........yet believeable knowing you all thru here...........

Keep this thread going it seems to be doing alot of good for all

Lil sis............I told ya ...............

Loves
BIG SIS

LIL SIS........Could you put link to my sobriety story up for Liqued.............I am ho[ing it may help................Luvs ya

Big sis

          

 ALL of you are so great and wonderful and have giving me hope about conquering anxiety, I am new to this site and have come in from time to time to read, and try and figure out this anxiety that is keeping me from really being happy. I think it is great to set goals and actually write them out so that you can see them and hear them for yourself, and have support, and faith to do it!

In six months I would:

love to get on a bus and not have panic attacks and fearful thoughts

would love to not have fear of going far from home, travel or go for a long drive with my boyfriend and enjoy it

i would love to forgive myself , and truly let go of things that i have done, and not have this guilt hanging over me forever causing me so much pain.

I want to stop beating myself up everyday, and telling myself that i'm not a good person, or that i am not good enough at my job

I want to truly know what it feels like to get up in the morning without feeling paniky, fearful and scared of everything

I want to heal forgive myself and others, and stop blaming myself for everything that has ever happened to me in my life

I want to be free from my phobia of heights for fear that i might jump!

1. Don’t try to forget your fear. That will only serve to empower it.

2. Reason your fear away. Face the fear and call it the impostor that it is using Truth as your ally.

3. Don’t fight the fear. That will only give it strength.

4. Let the fear feelings come. Watch the fearful thoughts and feelings come over you. Stand your ground and continue watching. Soon the fear will pass over you and be gone like a wave on the ocean that splashes over you and then rolls silently by.

5. Do not run from fear. Or you will always be on the run.

6. Walk side by side. Walk with fear down the path of Truth and one day you will discover there is no fear there at all.

WINNING THE WORRY WAR

1. Wake up. Get out from under the slumber spell. Become aware of your thoughts.

2. Step outside. Stand outside of your thoughts and look in at them through the window of your mind. Realize that your worry thoughts are separate from reality.

3. See the lies. See that your worry thoughts are, indeed, lies.

4. Trounce with Truth. Dispute your worry thoughts with the truth.

5. Freedom. Watch the fear fade to freedom.

POWERFUL POINTS TO PONDER

1. Stop and start over. Stop whatever you are doing and start over.

2. Look, listen and learn. See your twisted thinking, listen to the Truth, and grow from watching the Truth obliterate your negative thoughts.

3. That was there and then. Realize that your distorted thoughts are of the past or of the future.

4. This is here and now. Awaken. Get yourself into the present moment.

5. The Present present. You are always here and the time is always now. Once you realize this your feet will be firmly planted on the path of peace.


PRINCIPLES OF PEACE

1. Patience. Watch the situation. Become aware of your surroundings and calmly and confidently wait.

2. Practice. Separate yourself from your stressful thoughts. View the situation as a wonderful opportunity to practice all that you have learned.

3. Persistence. When the feelings of fear come - hold your ground. Stay relevant and dispute your twisted thinking with the Truth.

4. Power. The Truth is all-empowering. Soon your fearful thoughts and feelings began to dissipate into the week nothingness that they are.

5. Peace. Using the power of Truth you have won the worry war. You have won freedom. The treasure of peace is you

 

I found this on a website, some good points to remember Jen

Post Edited (Jen24) : 10/2/2007 4:07:54 PM (GMT-6)

Hm. Six months from now...

Well, I'm doing pretty well these days but I still have the occasional setback, and it usually revolves around anxiety after eating. I've made progress even with that, but it's still not totally gone by any means and I would like for it to be. And I'd rather not wait six months, either!

Anticipatory anxiety? Still get that now and then. What I'd really like to do is to be able to forget I ever had A/P to begin with. That sure would be nice. I don't know if it's possible. If I could just wake up and not think about it and go through the day and the evening and finally go to bed having never thought about it...well, I guess that would be complete recovery, wouldn't it?

Some say total recovery is possible...others say that it's not. I vacillate on the subject, honestly. I've come a really long way in the last five or six months, yet I do not feel close to being totally recovered, AND I'm still on medication (Klonopin). Then again, I do have more than enough glimpses of "normalcy" to make me think that it is indeed possible.

I guess, really, in six months I'd just like to be better than I am now. Whatever that may entail. And twelve months from now, I'd like to be better than I will be in six. And so on....

I want to be able to drive to the airport, get on a plane, fly to Hawaii, sit on the beach, drink mai tai, all by myself. I won't happen, but we can all dream.
I long for the days of 100% total independence from a safe zone.

     Thanks so much for the welcoming Lynn, you are all so supportive, and wonderful!

I am just wondering if anyone can relate to a situation that bothers me so much and causes me so much anxiety ....Lately I have been getting extremly anxious about driving, going to work just simply being on a highway, Its like i get so anxious before i leave for work, and i obsess about it get panic attacks and don't really know why???? Its not that i am phobic or atleast i'm not aware of it I just start feeling panicky start having fearful thoughts, and then it turns into "I can't handle this feeling, what if i jumped out of the car while driving?" I know i don't ever want to but its the feeling that what if oneday,it feels so real at the time and the anxiety is so stressful. I try distracting myself, and talking to my boyfriend or telling myself it's only anxiety and it wont hurt me, but its still there! Why can't i just look out the window while driving and think what a beautiful day"  Then i start to question myself, and try and figure out why these thoughts, and if i am normal because i never used to have these bizzare scary thoughts it used to be well i'm stressed today thats why i feel anxious and now it turns into what if i jump or act out, and loose it! It's like i think the more i think these  thoughts oneday it will happen.

Is it habit or just anxiety, and why??? I have to constantly ask for reasurrance from my boyfriend that its just anxiety, I want to learn how to, and know in my heart that there is nothing mentally wrong with me, and that anxiety cause these feelings.  I find i am doing it all the time, it seems that everything reverts to a really scary thought, and self doubt! I just can't relax sometimes! Is it only anxiety? thanks so much for listening any input would be appreciated! take care Jen

Debaser

YOU are so right you have come so bleeding far since joining us here and I my friend HAVE NO doubt you will acheive all you set out to in 6 mths 12 months

YOU are and have always been a true inspiration to the ppl and the forum

Take care my friend..........shoot for the stars you will reach them...........

I am almost SURE there has to be more of you that want to see your selves in a different place in this DD in 6 moths .......a yr ........whatever amount of time .........

Please do share if you care too