Anxiety Sickness (PLEASE HELP)

I ride the bus for like 45 minutes so getting sick is very hard to hold in. When I get into a pattern of getting up and going it gets easier. We have been off for a week so I knew if would be hard today.

I got on the bus, turn on my music, and since I like to paint, I looked at the different colors of the world. The different trees and everything. Things I have never noticed. It seemed to be working for a while. But the closer we got, the more I felt it.

I get a stomache, followed by upset stomach, I get chills, my hands start to get clammy and sweat-like. The longer I have to wait the worse it gets. Eventually, I start to shake, my legs feel numb, and I feel cold. My mouth gets really dry and I start to hurt all over.

As you can imagine, this makes it very hard for me to go to school. Most days I can control it. Or I just ride it out. But, somedays I have to come home. My mom drives my school bus and we eat breakfast together at school, so if I decide I cant go, I just go home with her. Thank God for that.

So, I just got home, I am still feeling very bad now. I hope I can feel better, because I hate missing school, but I cant go like this.

This has been happening to me since last school year. Only, it has gotten worse. The anxiety has gotten worse.

What do I do? How do I deal with it? How can I explain it to my mom in a way she can understand, since she doesnt really know the extent of my condition? I just want to be able to go to school and not feel horrible. We've all had an upset stomach and it never feels good.

Any suggestions? Sorry this is so long. Thanks for the help in advance!

Post Edited (TeNNiSd0C09) : 11/27/2007 7:29:00 PM (GMT-7)

Thank you.

No I dont see a therapist. Or use CBT. I would like to though. Anything that helps.

You see the problem is my mom doesnt really understand the things I tell her. And last time I tried telling her I was depressed, she flipped out. So, its really hard for me to talk to her and explain everything.

Its was weird though. I wanted to go to school. As much as I hate it, I actually like it also. I guess it gives me something to do. Today wasnt even going to be hard. I tried talking to myself, like saying how much I want to go, telling myself it will be ok. Nothing scary or anything happens at school. It just feels like a subconscious thing. I am not actually worried about school, but its like I am 2 people and the other person is and I feel it.

I went to sleep after I posted this, woke up at 10 and went to school at 10:30. I checked in because I can't miss Chemistry or Pre-Cal. My first 2 classes aren't all that important. I still felt really bad after I went. I was feeling dizzy. My head felt really weird, like I was going to get sick. I haven't had much of an appetite lately either. It got a little better toward the end. But, even right now I can feel it. Probably because I know I have to get up and do it again tomorrow.

Also, for those from the Fibro forum, I have talking to my mom about going back to the doctor. I think that if I do have it, all this depression and anxiety stuff is just part of it. BUT, if I can get to the doctor for the Fibro, I can tell them about the other stuff and get help for it also. She has seen the commercials for it a 100 times, yet I still have to feel as if I am dying everyday because she hasn't yet asked about it.

I just hope school goes better tomorrow. Its hard to explain to people when they ask why I wasnt there. I just say I was sick. And they say 'with what.' Ummm....change of subject please!

I just want some treatment. I want to be better. I want to quit hiding it. I want people to know so I dont have to explain myself all the time. My teachers should know as well. I shouldnt have to worry about whether or not they will allow me to go to the restroom or something if I am feeling bad. Believe it or not, some teachers have policies against going to the restroom!! We have 5 minutes inbetween classes, I go to the restroom every chance I get! Every 5 minutes if I could, plus going to my locker and traveling to my classes in 5 minutes without being late is impossible! So, I am really hoping I can get to the doctor soon!

Sorry this is so long.

You should try and see a therapist who deals with anxiety issues, or if that isn't possible, learn about cbt, it is a lifesaver.  Like I mentioned, there are tons of books on panic attacks/anxiety disorder and using cbt, and that may be a good place to start.  If you get back to the doctor, definitely talk to him/her about what's going on, if they can't help you themselves, I'm sure they could refer you to someone, and maybe even be able to explain things to your mom too.  I do hope that you will continue to have good days at school.  Hang in there and keep letting me know how you are doing.

Thanks. I would be very interested in learning CBT. I have read about how it helped so many people. I think it would help. I will see about reading about it. I am sure it is on here somewhere.

Today was bad again. I got sick again. I went to the school nurse twice. I think I have low blood sugar. I have never had it tested, but I am almost certain. The way I feel, then eat and it gets better the more I eat. The first time I noticed a poster in her office about high and low blood sugar and I had all the symptoms for low blood sugar.

The second time I asked if she could check it, but she couldnt because they have to have a doctors signature saying it is ok for her to test it. But I havent been eating lately and I am sure thats what it was. I got better about an hour ago when I ate a little snack though.

Well, I will read more on CBT, thanks!

Honestly, the only way my stomach issues got better was when I chose to accept that it was all because of anxiety and wouldn't allow myself to be afraid of it anymore and used cbt and positive thinking to keep the negative thoughts away.  It took some time, but finally my stomach felt better and I haven't had any problems with it since. 

I sure hope today is a good day for you and, asking for one good day is not asking too much!  It gets frustrating, I know, when you just get so fed up with feeling like crap and just want some relief from it all and have a good day.  You hang in there and let me know how today goes!

 I have actually had a bit of an appetite today! I ate breakfast. I had lunch and I am eating dinner right now! Except for being extremely sore(eveyr muscle in my body) I havent had a stomache at all today! First day in a week! Although, I do have school tomorrow...hopefully it will be ok! And continue to be ok since I have my appt. Wedn.

I am starting to get very nervous about it. I am still excited though! I hate going to the doctor though....I know it will go fine. But, I cant help but worry abou twhat he will say to me. It will be so weird knowing I have something. I wont be the mysterious patient anymore...((((BIG sigh)))) Its going to be ok....thats what I keep telling myself!