how do i get help?

They diagnosed me with panic disorder after a year in my bedroom not daring to leave, feeling sick all the time. They have loosly said things about OCD and depression, but i am not being treated for it, i am on 40mg of prozac a day, but one of the doctors said they want me off of it soon - she didn't even ask how things were going.

I don't even know where to start. I am anxcious all the time, my head in pounding all the time, terrible migrains, stomach pain, nausea, feeling so scared. Paranoid about everything. I feel so empty and alone, my relationships are out of controll, i am reaching out to everyone, engaging in risky sex sometimes which is very out of character and kills me when i do it. The guilt. My mood shifts constantly, i can be happy, but then someone says the smallest thing and i . Everything is messed up, i feel like i am watching myself through a tiny hole and i have no controll over what i'm doing. I have had so many dark thoughts  

I feel like i don't know what to say to my doctors, i tried to talk to her last week but she just said "I just think you're depressed" and booked me in for more therapy, but the therapist there is usless. How do i get them to really hear me? I just want help before please help me. 

** I edited just a couple of words out of your post due to content and rules of self harm my friend** 

Post Edited By Moderator (Howlyncat) : 2/5/2008 9:14:30 AM (GMT-7)

Hey Boxcastle..........hello my friend.  I do not know what your insurance is but I would suggest that you make sure you are seeing a Psychiatrist for your medications. It sounds to me like you need to have a fresh start with a good Pdoc that can do an intake re your medical and mental health issues and possibly some testing and come up with a definitive diagnosis for you.

From there a choice of medications can be made.  There are many meds and all for different dx.  What works for one may not work for another person so there is a lot of room to move and find out what combo will work for you.

I also feel like you need a therapist that your can build a trust relationship with, someone just for you.  They do not need to be in the same clinic if your insurance does not dictate where you go to receive care.

Many of the wonderful members have posted to you and I hope that shows you how much people care for you.  Please keep posting and I wish you peace.
Kitt