Cervical MRI results and health anxiety

Hi all!
I just left a post on the "another day in the neighborhood" post---but, thought I would post here too!

I haven't been lately b/c I have been experiencing pain in my neck and right arm (feels like the blood pressure cuff when it's really tight---all of the time), and it hurts when I am on the computer---so, I haven't been on a lot lately....


I FINALLY received the test results of my cervical MRI I had LAST week (9 days ago)! I have a HERNIATED DISC in my neck! Which disc? Good question---the automated system doesn't specify!

So, I made an appt. to see the PA at my MDs office---b/c I still have pain---and I can't get in to see the MD until late march!

I mean--I want to know NEXT! HELLO!

So, this all brings out all of this anticipatory/health anxiety that I usually get---"what if I need surgery" "I am scared of surgery" "I hear surgery doesn't help many people" "I hear surgery helps a lot of people" "I am scared" "why is this happening" "what if it's more than just a disc thing"?

SIGH_-----hate this! I am working on not letting it get to me--trying to breath and visualize peace, and calm...but, the pain is still there--and I get scared!

The good thing that comes out of all of this is that FOR NINE MONTHS (sorry I have to scream for a minute)---I HAVE BEEN TELLING PEOPLE about THIS PAIN--AND THEY THINK I AM 'CRAZY'!!! They came looking at my mid-back (even though I told them I had neck pain)---and after all of the tests, all of the drugs.....THERE IS A REASON WHY I HAVE PAIN!

I kept telling my primary MD---"I am anxious b/c I am in PAIN. I am not in pain b/c I am ANXIOUS".....he dismissed me! Well, look--there is something! I know my body---it tells me things! I don't know what those things are---but HELLO!?

SIGH! So, that is it in a nutshell---OH, what fun!

Laurel

Laurel, how frustrating and scary this must be for you.  At least you know you HAVE something wrong with you (although you knew that already) so you can focus on getting it fixed (and telling a bunch of people "I told you so!!").

I know what it is like to be waiting, terrified of what is coming next, but as Kitt sagely said, try and stay in the moment...you will drive yourself crazy worrying about "what could be".  I really hope that things work out for you, March seems like a long way away (especially when in pain).  Please keep posting and letting us all know what is going on.

(((((hugs))))) 

Laurel nobody knows your body like you do and i'm glad you didn't let those people keep you from searching for an answer. Thats how i am,if i know something is wrong with me i dont care what no one thinks i'm gonna keep searching until my mind is at ease!! Imagine if you had listened to everyone else!!! I know how it is to be in pain so i hope march comes real soon,remember Feb. is a short month so it will be here before you know it!!! I hope you dont have to have surgery but if you do everything will be fine!!!! Let us know how you are coming along!!!!