I'm really scared right now.............

CassandraLee

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Joined : Feb 2003

Posts : 943

Posted 2/23/2008 8:38 PM (GMT 0)

Hi All: I need some help at the moment. I am a full-time student and I go to school online. As with anybody else who has children and does this, it can be so difficult trying to balance school and my children. I don't have a job right now because I need my days to do Observation hours (I am studying to be a teacher). My therapist tells me that I keep sabotaging myself with getting my work done and actually doing well with my classes. I have received many positive comments on my writing and creative ideas but I have a huge problem with time management and dealing with stress and my depression.

This past month-and a-half was one of the most stressful that I have had since my divorce 3 years ago. Financially, it has been a nightmare and I spent as much time depressed/sleeping as I did on the phone with all the creditors. Well, now I am a week away from my class ending. My professor against his better judgement made allowances and a new schedule for me to get caught up on about a month ago. Needless to say I am quite behind and he has been inquiring as to "our agreement" for work to be on time and is wondering where my work is.

Last night I did what I always do - I froze. I went to bed and slept close to 12 hours. Now I am staring at my computer. My girls will be home in 3-4 hours. I have been told that I am going to be a wonderful teacher, yet I can't seem to keep myself going. I can't afford to fail another class - I only have this one and 1 left before student teaching.

Can you all help me keep going so I don't blow this entirely. And I don't know what to say to my professor. He is extremely tough (as he should be) and I am so afraid to contact him. I would like to get all my work done first and perhaps he will consider taking it even though some of it is quite late.

I know I'm babbling. But I don't want to get so panicked that I can't think and work from now through tonight on. If any of you can offer advice to help me from panicking and being even more depressed/tired I would greatly appreciate it.

Thanks,

Cass

BKF1515

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Joined : Dec 2007

Posts : 17

Posted 2/23/2008 9:00 PM (GMT 0)

Cass, I am so sorry you feel this way and I just wanted to offer you my support. I really know what it's like to freeze up when I need to crank an assignment out for a deadline. I do freelance writing work and have very little allotted time in which to get it done. I'll know that I have to leave to pick up my boys in 2 or 3 hours and I just don't start my work even though I know I'll be in trouble. It's like the more stressed I get, the more I put it off and the anxiety gets even worse. My husband doesn't understand why I do this to myself. The way I divert my anxiety is by finding other things to do in the house (ie. laundry, dishes, cleaning out a cupboard, even watching TV, something like that) instead of dealing with what my assignment is. So what I do when I want to work and I know I have to: I only allow myself to eat, drink, turn on the computer and use the bathroom. Sometimes I don't even shower first thing in order not to find reasons to delay my getting started. about approaching your professor, I think I would first do some or all of the work, and then approach him with it and the honest truth about your situation. It sounds like you've gottem yourself so far in your education (he has to see that too), that you will surely get there one way or another! Just hold on, one assignment at a time. Don't look at the total amount of work you have to do or you'll panic. Just work on one thing at a time.... You are amazing that you have gotten to where you are as a single mother. Take care, Tessel

Howlyncat

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Joined : Jan 2005

Posts : 24909

Posted 2/24/2008 8:13 PM (GMT 0)

Please take a deep breath and let yourself relax for a bit
YOU are doing so good and you are getting so stressed out
You do need to get your mind in a place where you can relax a bit IF only for a few minutes .........

You are doing so many things hun and I commend you for all BUT again you will blow a gasket if you keep up this pace w/o taking a bit of down time for you

Try your professor maybe he will surprise you and take the work even if late ............you may want to tell him some of what is going on around you ...I dont know but at least give him a shot and give yourself a huge pat on the back for ALL you are doing.........

Keep us posted plz on how things work out

LYN

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