Remember me all? I'm sufferin bad :'(

Hi Paulos, I'm sorry that you are feeling so bad.  Insecurity can make everything worse..and I know what OCD is like..arghhh!!

It can be really tough tapering off meds and even if you do it slowly and sensibly with doc's help it can make things seem worse for a while.  Be gentle with yourself and try and get us much support as you can from family and friends (and us of course!!).  Please keep us up to date and let us know how we can help.  Hang in ther Paulos, and welcome back.

Paulos, are you in any form of therapy?
How old are you?
Have you been OCD your whole life?

Paulos

I am so sorry your having a tough time and of course I remember you.  You have been working hard to get on the right meds. May I ask why your Pdoc took you off Lamictal? 

I so understand the insercurity issues and the changing of meds is an anxiety increaser for me.  Journaling is a good idea.  Here are some journaling tips.

1.Set your journal where you will see it everyday, i.e., on your nightstand, at your desk, where you have coffee. This will help to remind you to journal.

2.Part of keeping a journal, is not skipping a day, a week, and even months.

3.Writing a word, sentences, or paragraphs, journaling whatever you have to say that day is just the right amount to write.

4.Journal whatever is important for you to write about right then and there. I've journaled about a fabulous soup I ate, my concerns about a friendship, my dreams for the future.

5.Keeping your journal private. That can mean setting boundaries with those in your home, it may mean hiding it, or locking it away. You will have to make an individual decision about what that means to you.

6.Re-read your journal or not. Rarely do I re-read my journals. Some people always read what they have written. Again it is a personal choice.

7.Remember to use your journal for your benefit and well being, what ever that  means to you. Keeping a journal is a powerful tool that you can give to yourself everyday. Plus, this creates time for you every day.

I wish you peace and  please keep posting.
Gentle Hugs to you,

Kitt

Risperdal is really hard to deal with because it works so well.  You will now find out if you need it.   And you may lose some cognitiion(memory mostly) skills that the drug appears to help with.  That will also fade and then you will have to decide about taking it again.  I used it an teen, but developed prolactinoma  (I am very hormone sensitive and your prolactin levels go up oin antispychotics..)I wish I could continue with it.  I have really strong feelings about drugs I have researched.   I know it comes in doses of .5 and .25.

quietpain

 

Hi, Paulos!

I'm sorry that things are so rough for you now. It's hard when you have to change drug dosages or even types of meds, because nothing gets figured out except by experimenting. I don't know anything about your particular meds, but I hope your doctor is able to give you good advice about how quickly you can expect to feel the effects, what types of side effects they may have and for how long, and what changing dosages may cause you to feel.

I know the insecurity is hard to handle at the same time as the med adjustments. Try to count those successes that you have when you have them. For instance, just posting here and asking for advice is a sign of success and security in my book, rather than the opposite. You knew you'd be safe opening up here, and you knew you'd likely get some support, information, and comfort. Recognizing that you need those things and acting to get them is a good thing. Certainly, if you're having trouble reading and remembering, that will make you insecure, but I look at them as just saying, you're having trouble with those things, not that you're a weak person. And sleeping in your own bed -- well, I went through about 4 weeks one time in my life where I'd lie in bed listening to the sounds outside all night because I was terrified of prowlers. If I weren't more scared of having prowlers around and not knowing they were there, I'd have been sleeping in the tub with a pillow over my head!

So hang in there. Congratulate yourself when you make it through even taking just one more step, and be patient with yourself when you have to struggle with other things.

Please keep us posted on how you're getting along with your meds. I sure hope they get straightened out for you soon!

percycat

Thank you for caring all. This is another one of my out of it days, feeling insecure and bad... I hate to keep posting it but it is. Uhh let's see what else did I have to tell you all... oh yeah ever since I was like 14-15ish *not when I was young and has passion for life* I've sometimes had a feeling of ocd/anxiety/depression combined which makes me feel like useless crap. So I'm just saying... that's one of my problems, along with everyday life problems.