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Posted 6/6/2008 12:41 PM (GMT 0)
I ran out of Citealopram for about 2weeks, it was fine wivout them for couple days then i started to get a little depression but felt ok. When I finally got som citaelopram n started taking them again i got the usual side effects. Had nausea, couldn't sleep anxiety got worse overnight, even had some heart palpitations. Dont really have any1 to turn too now, n the thing i want most is great big hug.

My ex-GF called me yesterday n it really set off anxitey hopefully it will fade, i want to go and see her but kno if i do it wil only make anxiety alot worse. Its hard to force myself to not see her wen anxiety is telling me i need to. My head feels like its being pulled in sorts of different directions.

I kno eventally the anti-depressants wil kick in n i wil b fine, jus feel im going crazy in the meantime.

rant over

smurf  badfish smurf

Posted 6/6/2008 2:28 PM (GMT 0)
Gramps
I think personally you hit it right spot on ..........
She will have you on a rollar coaster til she is HEALED and you  ready .........and HEALED
That will not be good at all for you or your anxiety my friend not at all
Hugs will no doubt lead to other things................RATED NOT saying positivively but you are very needy and are wanting that hug........ and right now you HAVE to stay in your safe zone and away from her IMHO
I can tell you still have feelings for her and thats gonna be okay but you have got to get self better first and stronger to deal with all of this
THat is my thoughts I would never try to hurt you ..........
Take care
Please let us know how you are doing
Lyn

YOU have us here plz keep posting

Posted 6/6/2008 2:36 PM (GMT 0)

Morning Badfish,

You know we ex-girlfriends can keep you guessing as we sometimes hold you in the wings in case whatever else we have going on does not work out we have a fall back guy.  Now I am not saying all g/f would do this but if this one is calling you...........don't get caught up in a web.

Stay in the moment and leave the past where it is. If it is Hugs your looking for you got them.

They are head your way by planes, trains and automobiles.  Bushels of warm happy hugs and gentle hugs and group hugs.

We all need hugs and it is in my nature to sense when someone needs a hug...........although I will ask and not just grab a stranger. nono

Your med will kick in but even going for a very short time can make a difference.

Stick with us and we will get you  through this.

Hugs galore my friend

Kitt

Posted 6/6/2008 5:52 PM (GMT 0)
Badfish,

Dumptruck load of hugs coming from me, my friend.

I agree with everyone else about staying away from your ex g/f for a while. It's not mean; it's just what you have to do to heal sometimes. You know this, as you've said seeing her would just make your anxiety worse. I've never followed this advice myself -- too "softhearted" - and it's always been more hurtful that I haven't made a clean break, kept me from moving forward in a healthy way too.

Take the time you need for yourself, and for your medication to get back to full effect. And we're all here with massive amounts of virtual hugs any time!

((((((((badfish))))))))

percycat

PS - How is that study going that you're participating in in London?

By the way, how is that study going that you're participating in in London?
Posted 6/9/2008 12:44 PM (GMT 0)
study went ok, it looking to breathing exercises and situations when they can help and wher they cant help. stil waiting foir the results but i let u kno wen i get them.

The meds hav kicked in tho i feel quite depressed n i keep getting randomly aggressive.

I managed to avoid ex tho, i cud neva cut out my life shes too gud a friend for that.

LYN i dnt u wud or cud eva hurt me :)

Im gona try and take somtime out this wk hopefully i be feelin much better nxt wk, it wud be nice to get my confidence bak its deserted me recently.

Thanx support every1
Posted 6/13/2008 10:21 AM (GMT 0)
found out last night my nan hasn't got long to live confused and my aunt collasped with lupus yesterday too. Me sad now, really wana go see my ex bt kno it wont accomplish anything and kno it wont make me feel better. Nothing can make me feel better rite now i just gotta ride it out, hate feeling like this the constant battle beween me and anxiety is beginning to get to me.

I jus wana go out and hav a good time for once without worrying bout something or another, its been awhile since i could say i was happy.

Posted 6/13/2008 12:26 PM (GMT 0)

darn im struggling to hold it together rite now. Can feel an anxiety attack coming on sooner rather than later

Posted 6/13/2008 12:37 PM (GMT 0)

Badfish,

Good Morning and sending you tons of good vibes, bushels of hugs and  barrels of strength.  You have a right to feel sad today so don't try to block it.

Remember some of the good times too and laugh at some funny pictures if you can find them.  Remember to take babysteps and count every hour as a huge accomplishment.  I am proud of you.  If you start to feel really bad come here and talk to us.  Tell us a story, something good that you remember happening in your life or vent if that helps.

We are here for you.
Hugs
Kitt

Posted 6/13/2008 12:50 PM (GMT 0)

lol thanks stkitt,  venting always helps.

It means alot tome knowing your all here, i can remember how excited i was wen i first found this site i finally met ppl i cud relate too if tht counts as a happy memory.

Three weeks to big move and permanent internet, mayb then i can properly return the support i recieve from every1.

Kudos, I feel alittle better from venting incase u couldn't tel

Posted 6/13/2008 1:47 PM (GMT 0)
I can tell my friend and if it works do it.  :-)    :-)    :-)    :-)    :-)
Hugs
Kitt
Posted 6/13/2008 1:51 PM (GMT 0)
Hey badfish
I'm sending you a whole ocean full of hugs. You will be okay. There is much love on this website. I hope u can stay strong, because I agree with the others about your ex. And as much as I hate to say it, I have sort of done this to guys before I got married. It wasn't on purpose, sometimes girls just get confused. Anyway I'm sorry to hear about your grandma and aunt. Seems like everything bad always happens at once doesn't it? I will keep you in my prayers. And just one thought, I truly believe that if you were meant to be with someone, then somehow and someway, no matter what, you'll end up together. But just stay strong and cry if you have to. It's very healing to cry, even for guys. And I promise, it wont make you weak. I personally think it's very manly to cry, reasoning is: a real man has emotions. Women don't want a robot mocho man. Anyway, HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG!!!!!!!!!!!!! ((((((((Thirstyforchrist)))))))))))))))
Posted 6/13/2008 7:26 PM (GMT 0)
Badfish,

I'm just reading your post now and hoping that you're doing a bit better. I am so sorry to hear about your grandmother and your aunt. I hope your aunt is recovering from her collapse. Do you live close enough to your nan to be able to visit her, and is she up for visitors? I wish I'd been able to spend more time with my grandmother before she passed away, but her dementia often turned to physical violence, and she seldom knew most people except for my grandfather and sometimes her children. It was actually easier on us grandkids to remember her as she had always been. I'd like to think that, not remembering us, she didn't really miss us visiting (we saw her only about twice a year anyway), and that our presence as virtual strangers probably wouldn't have been an uplifting event for her.

Please share stories with us if you'd like to. When I've been facing important losses, I find it helpful to tell friends about good times and memories.

Hugs,
percycat
Posted 6/16/2008 3:22 PM (GMT 0)
Percycat, thanks my grandad before i cud say gudbye n i wud like to see my nan unfortunately its a 12hour drive :( b there are plans to persuade her to move in with us so my parents can look after her.

I jus wanted to tell every1 what a gr8 wkend i had, its was awesome the anxietywas ther bt i didn't let come between me and a gudtime jus goes to show what a rollercoaster ride this anxiety trip can be.
Posted 6/16/2008 3:25 PM (GMT 0)
Badfish,

So glad you rode the wave of anxiety and didn't let it stop you. That's good news.

I hope you'll get to have your grandmother close by.

Hugs,
percycat
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