Relationship ended in a Very Bad Way. SORRY- very long.

Just thinking about you, hoping that things are getting clearer and you are feeling a bit more powerful. Because you are.

Meg

itsokay!

Please do not beat your wonderful self up about this. When I was 17...OMG!!!

We anxiety people, we major in insecurity, forgive your mistakes...........

Your story has really struck a chord with me

I finally learnt that I was afraid to be alone with no man here with me
I have recently broken up with DH and
I and teen daughter are doing fine
YES I will always love him so will she but
I know that he was cheating and I do not believe in that AT ALL........

I sunk to the lowest depression ever I ahve just lost my father a bit ago and I am not in very good health
I do suffer and have from a./p since childhood'
I was the MOM to siblings

I married my childhood sweetheart and he was killed in a car accident in 1979 leaving me with 2 sons
I never thougth I would make it
BUT I DID and I drew my firsat sober breath on March 18th 1979 as did my dad the day ater rick passed away

Flash forward to a few yrs and I became involved with a fellow I thought was so wonderful yet soon I realized he was abusive and controlling
HE was able to take all my self confidence aay from me .........BUT I too let him......

When Cait was 2 I finally grew the Kahoonas to up and leave the alcoholic and her dad and strike out on my own
Within a yr and a half I OWNED my own retirement home and I was the strong LYN again
Never looking back I carried on and I finally met howie who was a great guy plenty yrs my senior and I felt I was a burden with al my illlneses ..........
Plus I had an idea something was going on with a gal from his wok
I was right
I asked him he never denied it .........because of some of my illnesss zI am not to active in the bedroom so I really blame him and me but I despise the fact he cheated........

I tried to forgive but I was not able to forget..it hurt too much for me

I have now been alone for a couple of months I see him occasionally ad we are friends BUT I no longer have the fear of being on my own

I am strong...I am able ...........and very capable of looking after my Cait
As well as looking after myself
I d not think those thoughts as I know what it would do to my daughter and my friends

We have many things in common IMHO but I do believe you are stronger than you think and you WILL get thru all of this

WE all will be here to help
Stay with us stay strong and know you are not alone

Kitts Rights are spot on........print them out I did and then re read them in a couple of months I am sure you will see what she is trying to say
I have them amongst many other things printed from here over my puter desk.......

IMHO Megs is also spot on we major in all the bad we can feel about selves

YET I know so many great supportive kind and giving......loving a/p"ers

Stick with us
I feel you have made some great steps and I know there is more to come

LYN

I am glad I could help you in your time of need

He works in mysterious ways my friend............

Luvs
LYN