Out of the Blue...

Ok, so I've been doing really well with not having a lot of panic/anxiety lately.
I've been facing some fears with a lot of hope.

I went to the dr's yesterday, shopping in the mall for 4 hrs and went to a restaurant, all things that make me uptight/nervous, but did them with ZERO anxiety yesterday.

Just now, I went to the pharmacy to fill a script and bang, I start to sweat, feel weak and like I'm going to pass out.
I walked out, then back in, then back out. Then realized if I walk out, It's going to be tough to ever go back in.

 
So walked back in, I had to wait 40 mns for the rx to be filled.

I'm almost full blown PA by this time........Then my rx is finally ready and I feel relief, but nope, the pharmacist wants to talk to me.

PA coming back full blown....he's talking and I am sayng "yeah yeah yeah" He sees I don't want to listen and i say

"sorry I don't feel well and need to get the heck outta here"

Then I leave

haven't had one of those in a while, but the good news, I didn't leave and I sweat it out.

 

Yeah, I rarely run out of a situation. If I do, I know it's one huge step back.

Thanks for the support

Peacesoul,

Congrats, that deserves a gold medal (okay I've been watching too much olympics!)..

You are so right, to have given in to panic and walked out would have chalked one up for panic.  I don't think I could have sweated it out for forty minutes though. That is amazing. What's your secret???

Proud Hugs,

Meg

Peacesoul,

You did great......and no you did not take a huge step backwards, you just had a panic attack and you got through it.  I am so proud of you but remember it is ok to have a tough day and we all do so no beating yourself up.

I say a little pray everytime I head out on the freeway, the pray is for the other drivers............ I do not want to cause any situation due to my issues.  So I get in the car and keep on driving up town which takes me about 35 minutes and I turn on my Cirrus Satelite station and listen to the comedy channel. If I am laughing I feel more relaxed.

Once on the road I will not turn back.  It is at home that I have the tendency to panic and want to hide and not go out on that freeway.

You did super, and you may have set the world record for sprinting from a pharmacy.

Hugs

Kitt

That is amazing - 40 minutes wow!! I have done that when people are talking - just shaking my head "UH HUH UH HUH" but thinking please hurry so I can get the heck out of here! Way to hang in there!

Blessings,
Leah

Peacesoul.... I suffer from vertigo as well..(.. along with a lack of judgment at times ), especially when I am very anxious.( I sent you some emails... I hope you'll accept the second one .... it really is heartfelt unlike the first one I sent you that was out of hurt.)
What do you take for your vertigo. ? I've fallen flat on my 'a...." a few times as well as flat on my face. I'm afraid to venture out without both my crutches... or I drive my scooter up town... My daughter's been there in the nick of time also to catch me before I end up falling. Does your vertigo make you nauseous? I
I' m so impressed with how you were able to stay in the store to get your meds.... I don't think I would have made it. When my anxiety kicks in that strongly , I would be able to make it I think if my crohns didn't act up as well. I would have ended up in the bathroom, doubled over.
Kuddos to you.
Mary

Hi Mary, thanks for your support. I've not checked my email the last few days, but will later on for sure.

My vertigo came on suddenly in Jan 07. One good episode. Then other symptoms started to appear over the months following that. I was then dx with Lupus in April 07, then Lyme disease in Aug 07. It was terrible.

My vertigo still comes once and a while but more so I get the dizzies.Never in my life did I ever get dizzy from anxiety or dizzy for that matter so this was all new to me.

The two huge episodes of vertigo causes nausea for sure, but the short spurt ones, not really. I fell over on the first episode, but when I feel dizzy, I stay home and will not get in my car. etc...

I feel the vertigo is an issue with my either sinus or inner ear since I also get SEVERE ear ringing and face pressure. It's all condusive to lyme and lupus. Who knows!

Mary, you can try to irrigate your sinuses when you have vertigo, It does help. I used salt water and put a few drops of oil or oregano and irrigate with those. It takes a good portion of the pressure away.

I also used to have horrible IBS and diarrhea from my anxiety. I got rid of that once and for all.

As for leaving the pharmacy; years ago, I would have just left, but I just can't let this win. I'm in cognative therapy now and determined this time to beat the anxiety, or at least control it so it stops controlling me.

It wasn't easy though, I really REALLY wanted to leave the pharmacy.