GAD and me.

Hi All

I have lived with anxiety for most of my life and i am really trying to beat it at the moment, some days i wake up and feel fine and positive about things but other days just seem to turn into a nightmare as i am consumed by anxiety and then depression. I have had great advice from my pdoc and from members here on healingwell and have listened and tried to implement all that i have learned over the last year. I seem to be going through a period of self analysis at the moment and looking back over the years and can now see how GAD has really affected my path in life things have not been easy and i really want to change this cycle of anxiety/depression i have found myself in.

I know what i need to do and i am trying my best but i still get anxiety/depression which seems to come and go as they please. I am on a extended trip at the moment and intend to use this time to reflect and decide how i am going to change things for the better. I think a few life changes are in order starting with looking for a new job when i get back which i know will cause me anxiety but in the long term will be good for me as i am not happy when i am at work. I need to beat my fear of social situations as i am single and find this depressing and think if i could meet a girl and settle down i would be a lot happier i am 33 now and feel that my anxieties are holding me back.

I have got CBT when i get back so i hope that will help me get things back to a level were i can carry on with my life and not worry about every little thing that goes on in my life. I need to and will stay focused on my goals and take one step at a time as i know it will take time to sort things out as t
my anxieties have had a long time to settle in and develop. I think this trip is going to be the first small step and when i arrive back in the uk i will be more focused on what i need to do.

I would like to thank all the members who have given me advice over the last few months you really have helped me loads and i thank you for that.



Take Care

Ben

Thanks Guys

I really do hope that the CBT helps me out and i am looking forward to starting it when i get back. I am here in France until the end of March so have got a bit of time to think about things without the distractions of work, i seem to make progress then something worries me and the anxiety starts again. I find it hard to switch all the thoughts off in my head but hopefully over time i will be able to start controlling my anxiety.

Thanks Sam and Nikki

Ben

Good luck Ben, keep us posted, i know you can do this!

Maz XX