HI Gem- im 28 and i got panic disorder when i was 10, so i sympathise. and instead of alcohol, i hid behind prescript
ion 'downers'- benzos, opiods etc for many years to numb the pain of reality. my addictive personality never like alcohol, but is sure liked tranquilisers, sedatives, pain meds etc.
BUT, in order to really begin the healing process its important to feel and and be aware of your surroundings, and substance abuse doesnt help panic, it may mask it temporarily, but in the long run, it is so detrimental to your mental health.
I hope you stay with us and get to know us and feel comfortable sharing- this is a place of support, and not a place of heavy handed judgement.
all the best,
Maz XX