4am

Its 4am and i cant sleep cos im so sick. my face is swollen from sinusitis, i have now ruptured BOTH eardrums. i have pharyngitis, so swallowing hurts like hell. i have a grinding migraine that has been wearing me down for days now. the only respite i get is when i am asleep, but things are so bad at the moment that i cant even do that. the intense heatwave we have been experiencing has caused my fibro to flare, along with reactive arthritis. in reality, i feel swollen head to toe, and like ive been hit by a bus. i have glandular fever and a bronchial infection and im sure i have kept mum and dad awake with my 'barking sea lion' cough.

i am so thoroughly tired of this- when it effects my sleep, my anxiety levels rise tenfold.

i am at the end of my rope- it hurts being this sick all the time and it messes with my head- all the meds im on (opiates for pain etc) dont really stop the pain, they just put my head in a happy place- but its very temporary.

*Also, i feel guilty for posting this as our precious Meg is back in hospital, and im saying prayers for her, and also for Gail's mum (nanners) as well as Kitt's sister Bev, and our own Lyn who has had a rough time.

Kitt, Sam & Mary have seen photos of what i look like at the moment- a hideous swamp monster with melons for glands and painful facial swelling along with all the e.n.t stuff. poor people, i probably terrified them! lol.

Im not here for a pity party, i tried to read myself back to sleep- no avail. been watching season 7 of CSI- no avail. so i thought i would jump on here as i know my HW family will be around and i can just get all this off my chest.

a person can only take so much before depression due to circumstances kicks in. im strong and im a fighter and i HATE that these multiple viruses and infections that have made me feel this way, have made me weak. im exhausted, but my pain is stronger than my need for sleep- wishing the pain meds would kick in NOW.

I apologise in advance if this seems like a pity party- its 4am and i didnt know where else to go and i know you guys are supportive. im just so totally over this. its been a month now and no improvement. very frustrating.

Am going to watch tv again and hopefully nod off. i got up and made a decaff chai tea and am hoping to get to the land of slumber SOON!

thanks for letting me vent. you guys rock.

Maz XX

thanks Aries, im on my 2nd course of ultra strong antibiotics, but my body has built a resistance to them and they dont seem to be working. im so strung out from lack of sleep, pain meds making me fuzzy, feeling like crap etc.

thanks so much for your kind words, means the world. im going to take you advice and go watch some tv and hopefully doze off.

Love ya,

Maz XX

Maz

Sorry you are going through this at the moment I hope the antibiotics kick in soon and you start to feel better my friend, Take care of yourself my thoughts are with you.

Hugs

Ben

Oh Maz, you poor thing.  I cannot imagine how miserable you are with that list of ailments.  I do hope that you are getting some much needed sleep and will start to feel better soon.  Hugs to you!

Hello my Dear Maz,

It sounds to me, Dr. FeelGood, like you need to be in a hospital with IV antibiotics and getting some more testing done.  I want you to have blood cultures and ENT and the Boys from down Under there to take good care of you.

You need to sleep for your body to heal and I know you have crappy sinuses to begin with but you cannot go on like this. 

Whatever your taking for antibiotic is not the right choice. 

You need fluids, lots of fluids...............and pain medication that will help you. You need back rubs and lots of love.  You need all of us to come down and take care of you.

I know how bad you are hurting as your picture was very graphic of how bad your infection is.  You are still bautiful even with a swollen face...........

Don't you ever think coming here and talking with us is inappropriate.  We are here for you.

What about nebs for you chest, are you wheezing at all?

Know I am here and you are in my prayers and do get back to the Doctor's and insist on treatments to get you better..................

Luvs ya my friend

Kitt aka Dr. Feelgood 

Hey our Little Aussie Sis, aka L.A.S. :)  You know I'm here for you and I'm not going to bore you with repeating myself dear friend

Don't ever feel like a burden to us

You always give of yourself so much that you could never be that.  We are all here for you and love you so much.  Your healing is number one priority IMO. . .  Take care and definitely keep us posted without regret

Your in my prayers.  God bless you!

Maz,
((hugs))
Good grief, woman! That is way too many sicknesses! I am quite sure you are over the limit.
Seriously, though, isn't there a better specialist you can see? That is just horrible that you keep having to put up with so much! I don't know how you do it. This is summer vacation -- you're supposed to be enjoying it not picking up new illnesses - jk. :) I just can't even imagine everything you're going through. I do know that the pain meds don't really help all that much for sinus infections, though I've never had anything close to as bad as what you're going through.

Of course we're all praying for all the other requests, but I'm saying double prayers for you. Isn't there just anything they can give you to kick that infection out of your system? What about that stuff they give to people with MRSA?

I don't know, really. I just feel so bad for you. Try & get some rest and promise you will try to get some better help come Monday morning, eh? Please take care of yourself & your swelled up head.

hugs & prayers,
frances

Well after much coersion, my body let me fall asleep around mignight, only for me to wake at exactly 4am, choking and gasping for air and a throat full of blood and gunk. i neeeeeeeeeeeeed my sleep.

Oh family, i am tired. I love you all so much,

Maz XX

Corrie, i love carrot cake! and Nikki, at this point in time, it looks like surgery in june, which is beyond frustrating. i am so ill, i should be used to it by now...

sorry for the sob story- love you all,

Maz XX

(((MAZ))) will be keeping you in my prayers. Feel better soon my friend!!!

Hugs,
Gail *Nanners*

Maz I so much wish I had a magic pill that would make things all better for you.  I am soooooo wanting to make things all better for you.  I can only say that you are in my thoughts always and I am hoping you can get some sleep sometime really really really really soon (like now).  Sleep deprivation when we are sick just adds to the misery.  You are in my prayers.

Maz,

I am mad as heck at you for not being in a hospital and getting the care you deserve.  Waking up and choking on your own blood and secretions..................no suction available.  Unsafe...........I have checked out Quants Airways for a flight but alas the ticket is close to $2,000.00 round trip.........

I would cash in my pennies but I know I would be about $1700 short......

I am really worried about your health and I want you better and what Kitt wants, she should get....

Seriously, you know I care for you and hope your health soon gets better.  (((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))

Hope this happy get-well note
Adds sunshine to your day-
And shows you that you're thought of
In a warm and special way!

Hugs and prayers

Kitt

May God’s love overshadow you
At this time you feel unwell
And know we’re here thinking of you
And praying for your good health.
May God’s love overshadow you
At this time you feel unwell
And know we’re here thinking of you
And praying for your good health.
May God’s love overshadow you
At this time you feel unwell
And know we’re here thinking of you
And praying for your good health.