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Posted 4/7/2009 4:23 PM (GMT 0)
I'm feeling very low. :(... I got my second chemistry test back today.... I totally bombed it... :(... I don't think it even reaches D level... I made such stupid mistakes... I feel like such an idiot. It makes me so upset...

I don't want to do bad in chemistry... I want to be a biochemist... I want to help figure out why things go so wrong in my body... and everybody else's...

Maybe... I shouldn't freak out so much. I mean... I've been turning in my homework... and my first chemistry test I did excellent on... One bad test doesn't mean I'm going to fail, right? I really don't want to fail...

Last night, I was depressed, too... but... I didn't want to bother anyone about it... Because it was just one thing.. :(... My roommate is smoking pot... This isn't the first time she's done it... I told her the first time that I couldn't really stop her if that's what she wanted to do... but that she should take it outside of the dorms if she's going to do it... because I don't want to get in trouble if she gets caught, and I didn't say anything... And I told her the second time that she really shouldn't do it, and that it really upsets me...

I don't want to have to tell the housing director about this because she is a nice person... but... I don't think I have much choice...

I feel so stupid for breaking down like this... Of all the things I've been through in my life, you'd think all of this would be something that'd just roll off... I hate being so sensitive. Why is it there are so many times I feel like I'm being ripped to shreds? I hate it so much...
Posted 4/7/2009 4:38 PM (GMT 0)

Celey,

Dont let one bad test grade get you down, I took Chemistry last semester and did pretty bad on a couple of tests but I still managed a B, and I'm taking Biology now and the same applies....in lab we've had 4 tests so far....I received a C, F, C, B, I let the anxiety take over and I missed questions that I knew the answer to. But once my grade averages out at the end it will hopefully be a B. Dont let the one test get to you, you are not stupid. One bad test doesnt mean you will flunk out of the class. Doesnt it irritate you when there's this one person in the class that makes A's on everything, and just makes you feel low? That was my problem once, I was letting the grades that others were making effect me also, so now I dont even ask what other's made, I'm only concerned with myself.

Posted 4/7/2009 4:59 PM (GMT 0)
The problem is... I used to be that person that makes A's on everything....

Are you in high school or college? *I'm in college... so, if you're in high school, things work a little differently at the college level...*
Posted 4/7/2009 6:04 PM (GMT 0)

Celey, I was very hard on myself while getting my AA degree. I got straight "A's" and then a "B" had me crying all the way home. I put a stop to that. I asked myself if I had done the best I could. The answer was yes. I realized there was nothing else I could have done.

Then as someone else on this thread mentioned, Biology was difficult. The teacher didn't like me and my grades plummeted. All you can do is your best. Don't concentrate too much on your grades. Just do your best and everything will be fine!

Posted 4/7/2009 6:11 PM (GMT 0)
I'm not certain I am doing the best I can do... I probably wouldn't even be online right now if it weren't for the fact that I have an appointment at 2:00... I'd be sleeping because I'm so tired...
Posted 4/7/2009 6:22 PM (GMT 0)

Celey,

I was just like Aries, I got 1 B+ in  school, (Nursing School) when my husband was having major surgery and I had to study in his hospital room.  I had 4 children at home and I cried and beat myself up for being a failure.  I did end up with a 3.97 grade point average but I wanted that 4.0.  Well it did not happen and all these years later it really doesn't matter. blush

No one after asked to see my grades just my RN license. So no this does not mean you are a failure.  Be proud of all the good grades you have earned and don't let the one pull you down.  You will make it, I promise.

Hugs

Kitt 

Posted 4/7/2009 6:31 PM (GMT 0)
Celey, it's good to do your best. But you can also go overboard. You mentioned being tired. That's probably your problem and why you're focusing so much on this one bad grade. Get some sleep after your appointment! Kitt had great advice, too!
Posted 4/7/2009 7:51 PM (GMT 0)
I agree with Aries I think your fatigue is getting to you and possibly making you feel a little more sensitive to things. Do try to rest after your appointment and hopefully things won't look so glum. I wouldn't worry so much about one test as the others said, I am sure you will do fine in your class. I know my Celey is one smart girl.

And about the roommate, if she cannot respect your wishes and stop smoking that stuff in your room, then I think you have every right to go to housing director and complain. I have seen someone innocent get in to trouble because of someone else's illegal actions and would hate for that to happen to you.

Hugs
Gail *Nanners*
Posted 4/8/2009 1:17 AM (GMT 0)
Actually I am in college, for the second time, a single mother and work part time and now working towards a nursing degree, so an A in every class for me would be great but I wont beat myself up if in the end I have a couple of B's on my transcript because I have a lot on my plate and I dont get much sleep after dealing with a 5 yr old, then homework and studying and working on weekends. Yea everyone would love to ace every test and we really beat ourselves up over the one's we dont do our best on but sometimes we have to remember that we are human and we're not perfect and we will mess up but that's just even more reason to try harder for the next test. Focusing too much on trying to make straight A's leads to stress and not being able to focus as much as you should and loss of sleep, I've always made A's until it was time to focus on the science classes which isnt my strongest subject. A's are great but I'm proud of the B's that I have accomplished knowing that I haven't always done so well in that area and with so many other things going on in my life. I've worked in the medical field before going back for my RN license and like Kitt stated when I was hired all they needed was proof that I was licensed to do my job, there was no concern of the grades that helped me get that license. Focus on the good grades and use the bad one's as a learning experience. Think back to what you did to prepare for the test and maybe there's something you'll find to work on to improve next time.

Post Edited (Mizzbeeutiful) : 4/7/2009 7:34:04 PM (GMT-6)

Posted 4/8/2009 2:37 AM (GMT 0)
I admire your dedication to your school work.  It's so easy to feel guilty over one bad grade but don't let this stick in your head!  Stop dwelling on it and shake it off.  

A lot of people with a/p want everything to be perfect and unfortunately it does not work that way.  We have to learn that its o.k. to mess up once in awhile.   

Don't forget there's always next time! 

Mary

:) 

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