christinetheelf,
Welcome to HealingWell and the A & P Forum. I am Kitt. I am so sorry to hear about your run of bad luck but also glad to know you were able to buy a piece of land and get a new starter home going. This is a good thing and as far as your anxiety, I think you have some very real issues that have kicked in your high anxiety.
Please know you came to a great place to find support and caring.
Do stick with us and let us help you through this tough time in your life.
Again a warm welcome.
Kitt