My introduction..

Hi everyone, my name is tee (nickname). I want to introduce myself as I look for support. I have been battling anxiety since childhood on and off. I am now almost 31. I had a severe attack of anxiety at age 19 that lasted until I was about 21ish.I was left depressed because I didn't know how to handle anything and I quit school and my job for a good year. I was fine from 21 to 26. I had never medicated, just dealt with and got over it I guess. When I was 26 it happened again this time I was so anxious like it happened over night for no reason. I did get on buspar and stayed on it for 2 years living a normal happy life. That episode lasted a good 4 months with the worst of it only being for 2 months. Then I got pregnant and got off buspar and thought I was free from anxiety forever. I had my baby in december 2007. I had a great pregnancy but was plagued with cystic acne- never had that before. At 4 weeks post delivery my derm gave me steroids to try and clear any acne I had left over. I was feeling absolutely fine. I did have baby blues for a week or so but nothing to think about-UNTIL I took the steroids. Within 1 week of takung them anxiety was throuigh the roof and I didn't know why or what happened. Prednisone triggered my anxiety/mood according to my pysch, but this was found out a few months after. We put 2 and 2 together. He had no idea why it started suddenly after 4 weeks. Anyway long story short I was put on seroquel for my racing thoughts- I did toooo much reading and thought I was becoming schizophrenic and I thought I was losing my mind. After a week on seroquel and buspar, things started to slow way down. By the time my son was almost 3 months I was pretty much back to normal. I went off meds in july and restarted in september. My skin started to breakout again and I was freaking out and having anxiety alll over again. Any meds I tried for my face made me have "what if's" again too much reading the webs. So here I am today. Life feels like a roller coaster. I just upped my seroquel dose a week ago and I'm having better days but they are still up and down. I am really irritable and snappy too! I hate feeling that way because its not me. I feel tired all the time and that also makes me feel frustrated. I have been here before way worse and made it through.I know I will again, its just taking its sweet time.I come for support and look forward to helping and getting help. Thank you all for listening. Sorry this was too long!
Talin

Yeah, I now know I will have to be on it forever most likely! Which is alright with me as long as they dont poop out on me. Anyway, yes I try to stop surfing and when I feel less "obsessed" over things I don't remember the internet. Funny how that happens. Prednisone use to be my best friend. Except for side effects. I never had any anxiety with it prior to my pregnancy, I only gained weight which was ok bcuz I am a small girl.I had been on it for breathing (asthma) and for some small flare ups of acne here and there. Now if I take 1 pill I feel anxious. Pregnancy does weird things to you!!! Well thanks for the response nanners! Ttys, tee

Hi Nelle...thank you for your kind words. Yeah, anxiety sucks bur because its been a part of me for so long I think I can deal with all the superficial stuff better than most. I have my days. YES, most definately willing to take meds. I have no problem whatsoever doing that. Whatever makes me feel better. Even if it means forever. I mean it stinkd but you gotta do what you gotta do, right? So to answer your question, I hadn't had anxiety for a good year and a half before I got pregnant. I was on meds tho. Pregnancy was PERFECT except for my plague of acne. Don't worry about taking meds longterm. You can always wean off ( dr's ok) and see how you do. If it keeps coming back you might just accept you have to be on meds for a while..like me! Oh well. Anyway, how many kiddies do you have?