Posted 7/12/2009 5:12 PM (GMT 0)
Haven't been on for a while but had still been dealing with daily low grade anxiety which I had pinpointed finally to be almost completely related now to work. I was taking my rescue medication of Zyprexa almost daily and it really wasn't working on the anxiety any more. I had no joy in my work. Two years ago I loved to go to work.
I decided to return to the licensed clinical social worker I saw 15 years ago to work on trying to get the joy back in my work. She suggested that I had conditioned myself now to feel this anxiety about work after having gone through a very difficult and anxiety producing period a year and a half ago (at which time the anxiety became debiliating and I ended up in the hospital). I have been through two sessions now of hypnosis during which she has suggested to me that I don't have to be perfect, that I don't have to make everyone happy, that I am beginning to enjoy my work again, that I can put my anxiety in an ugly box and take my peace out of a pretty box, that I can breath my anxiety into a paper bag, wad it up and throw it away, among many other things and you know what - it's working - I don't have the usual degree of Sunday "returning to work tomorrow" anxiety!
I just wanted to post a success story. I am going to continue to work with Alicia (who is a licensed clinical social worker and now a PhD) every two weeks for the foreseeable future. I know it won't get better overnight. I haven't to take a Zyprexa in ten days.
I really didn't think this would work at all. I had faith only in medication. In other words I "poo pood" therapy and hypnosis.