Smitty,
I am sorry you are out of work and I certainly understand your feelings of low self esteem. I went through that a lot back a few years ago when I had a melt down and took early retirement. I felt like the world's biggest loser and was very hard on myself.
I still want to know the answer to "Why Me?" I had a wonderful therapist I asked this question of and he responded with "Why not you?" Well I guess that was my answer.
So I continue to work at keeping the anxiety under control but like everyone else I have some really bad times and the pain of having Anxiety and Depression is not always easy to bear so I come here and talk with all of you.
I am so glad you have joined us.
Gentle Hugs
Kitt