so ive been doing really good with my anxiety until recently. i notice that i can go months without feeling anxious or any of the side effects that go along with it. as of late though it has started to creep back in ive had a lot on my plate. the thing was i had an infection on my leg so they had to cut the infected part out weird thing is this didnt make my anxiety flare. but now the bills are coming in since i dont have insurance so knowing i owe money stresses me out. i also started working selling kitchen knives which makes me have to interact with people i dont know which is stressful at times. also got a job at a grocery store so waiting for the drug screening to go through so i can start that. yesterday was the first day of school so i went to print my schedule and it said i wasnt in any classes so this freaked me out because i really want to be going to school so i can transfer so i nearly had a panic attack but i didnt let it beat me so i went and luckily got all my classes. another factor is im seeing a girl now and that adds all kinds of stress just cuz i think to much in general but when it comes to girls its doubled. the thing is im quite religious and in todays society doing things that goes against god is natural but for me it causes me guilt which is no good.
so now my anxiety has kicked in my stomach is jacked up i feel like i need to vomit and need to go to the bathroom a lot. i get tired during the day which makes me take naps and last night i couldnt sleep much which hasnt happened in a long time. blah i hate stress cuz it just brings me back to this. which is crazy cuz this all started at the beginning of the year out of no where. where is the off button? lol