Melody1000 - New Member

Hey guys,I have been a having a problem with chest pains since july of 09.I came out of no where.It started when Michael Jackson died,and I had watch this reality show called dead man talking and they show this lady dieing of heart attack.I was so afraid.I started getting these chest pains,I was worried.I kept looking in my medical health book.I was freaking out.I was sleeping one night when I woke up and I thought I felt a chest pain.I called my doctor and he gave me a ekg.and said your heart is normal.I started crying...because it was a relief,but the doctor said i need professional help.Well the bad thing is...I have no health insurance.I kept having chest pains thinking i was gonna die.I keep thinking about it all the time.I dont like this feeling.The chest pains comes and goes,but sometimes I wont get them,but I get to thinkin about it and here the pain comes.I called the doc,and asked him could he give me anything to take the edge off.He gave me zanax.Eww i can take that.I made me worry and I still had the pains.Then he put me on ativan that helps.but still have the pains.So to make a long story short.I found a free clinic on saturday that just passed.I was there for 3 hours before i got seen.THe doctor checked my blood pressure,and the bottom number was like a hundred.Mind you I was crying in the room.I cry because finally someone was bout to see me.The doc said anxiety probably caused my pressure to be up.she put me on high blood pressure meds.I was so scared,and started crying..I dont know what to do.I really dont have the pains like before,but I still have them a little.Am I going crazy?Everyone is trying to put me on depression medicine.I'm glad I not alone

Pinkmelody.

*I started a new post for you, so that you would get more responses*

Welcome to HW and our A/P Forum :)

You are going through a lot lately and it seems to be self induced with the fear of dying. This is called Anticipatory Anxiety and there are a lot of us here that suffer or have suffered from it. Hopefully after having an EKG, your mind should be at rest, because if there was anything dangerous happening, it would have showed. As for the high blood pressure meds, I'm sure that all of the stress you've been under has contributed to your blood pressure rising, but you must keep in mind that a person's BP along with Pulse will vary several times everyday. So just have the clinic doctor keep an eye on it and try not to worry.

We have some free resources here that will help you out :) On the main page of this forum, go to the top and you will see a thread labled Anxiety - Panic Resources. There you will find links to free online CBT (therapy) and also really wonderful breathing/relaxation exercises. The CBT will help you rationalize your anticipatory anxiety and the others are just great to help keep calm. And, please do stick with us here for the great peer support, because that is an important part of your recovery.

Take care now and check out those links :)

......no hun you are not alone...this place and the members have brought me thru so much these last few years,.stay with us you are here with us now no longer facing all alone it is hard but do able.anticipatory anxiety is a cruel part of this i suffer with it as well.i have to do deep breathiing exercises and talk myself thru it i worry about everything anticipate all the bad it is hard to live like that all the time..i would ask your doc for a longer acting med imho and use the others for your panic hard to learn between but read some posts here u will see it is not just you n you have come to a place of good community and caring..healing well......lyn