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Posted 12/6/2009 5:16 AM (GMT 0)

I am new to healingwell but obviously there is a reason why I am on here. And here it is....

From as early as I can remember to 7th grade I was sexually assaulted continuosly. Then when i was in 9th grade it started again with someone different until my sophmore year in college. I will randomly talk about it with some people but never go into details. It has bothered me for awhile, not majorly though. This year I have just started taking adderall for adhd. I started on a low dose and was fine. And now I am on a higher dose and I think I feel fine but my friends say that it makes me for stressed out. I am not sure if its the meds though or if its just how I am. I mean I have always been a big worrier about everything. From what I am going to wear in the morning to going to bed at night. Its so hard for me to lay down at night because I worry that I have forgotten to do something during the day. But once I lay down I fall asleep so fast because I am always so tired. I also am always so tense and have to remind myself to breath. When I am stressed my face gets hot and red? wierd i know! I am currently kind of in a relationship with this guy. However, the other night I told him that I really don't think it is going to work out. He got really sad and pointed out that everytime after we do something sexual together I always find a reason why it's not going to work out. Which brings me back to my childhood. Anyways I am just basically wondering if anyone thinks that it sounds like I have anxiety or not? Also i was wondering if you would recommend me seeing a counselor. And lastly I was wondering when you have anxiety is it always there or can it come and go? Thanks 

Posted 12/6/2009 11:56 AM (GMT 0)
Hi k333

Welcome to the HW anxiety forum this is a good forum and you will gain support here, The weekends are a bit quieter here so I am sure some more members will be here soon to offer some support & advice. So sorry to hear what you have had to go through during your childhood no one deserves that kind of abuse. These events could of triggered anxiety in your childhood and it sounds like you are having problems with anxiety know from what you wrote in your post but I am not a doctor so would suggest you go and speak to your doctor about how you are feeling with anxiety and get there advice. To answer your questions I would say yes I would recommend seeing a counselor as it is good to talk to someone about what ever issues you are having, I have been to see a counselor and also had a number of therapy sessions such as CBT which is a talk therapy which can help you deal with your anxiety better and found this very useful so something you could look into?. I have Generalized anxiety disorder & Depression and find that my anxiety does come and go and will have problems with this but I take each day as it comes and take small steps to improve my situation and manage it the best I can. I hope you get the answers you are looking for and I wish you all the best and keep posting here to let us know how you are getting on.

Take Care

Ben
Posted 12/6/2009 2:08 PM (GMT 0)
Anxiety can and does come and go. I think what you may be suffering with some is Post Traumatic Stress Disorder because of your childhoood. I would highly recommend therapy/couselling sessions. You really need to deal with the past before you can enjoy your future. Good luck and keep us posted.
Posted 12/6/2009 11:42 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks guys. It just makes me so nervous. I don't really have a regular doctor I see but I know that my college offers free counseling. I just don't know what I would say and I am worried it would be so akward. And I don't know how i would start even talking. I am so used to hiding it that the conselor may not even have a clue what is wrong with me and i guess I am just still trying to decide what to do.
Posted 12/6/2009 11:49 PM (GMT 0)
Hello k33,

Please try not to overthink your first visit to a therapist or Doctor. Just let it happen.

Your first session with the therapist will be different from future visits. The initial visit is a period for you and your therapist to get to know each other and get an idea where to proceed. Future visits will be more therapeutic in nature.

Keep in mind that psychotherapy is a long-term process so don't expect any instant solutions to your problems the first day. Therapy is about equipping you with life-long solutions rather than a quick fix.

During the first session, you will be asked about what brings you to therapy. You will be asked what you feel is wrong in your life, any symptoms you are experiencing and your history. History-taking may cover such things as your childhood, education, relationships (family, romantic, friends), your current living situation and your career. You may discuss the length of your treatment, the methods to be employed and patient confidentiality as well. When the therapist finishes, you may be asked if you have any questions.

Go with an open mind and know it is ok to feel nervous, we all do on our first trip to the Doctors and I do on many return trips........it is the anticipatory anxiety that gets to me..............and once I am there I do find.

I wish you peace,

Kitt
Posted 1/4/2010 7:16 AM (GMT 0)
So I went back to my ADHD doctor. And I brought up anxiety and told her that i thought I might have it. And she told me that the meds. can cause anxiety as well. She asked me if I thought it was the meds. and I told her no but honestly had no clue. Well then she kind of blew the rest off and told me that if I want to come back and talk to her more about it I can otherwise she will see me in three months. This kind of makes me mad!! I could not even look the lady in the eye when I brought up anxiety cuz the word brings tears to my eye!!! Bringing up the word was such a HUGE step to me!! I told you all before how scared i was well I tried. Well anyways I ended up just leaving. I stopped taking my ADHD meds to see if I felt any better. And to be honest I do feel somewhat better, not back to normal but better than before. I just have certain days when I feel like i am going to have like a spaz attack. Anyways here is my next dilema do I go back to this Dr. and tell her i stopped taking my meds? And bring up anxiety? Or go to a different Dr.? I looked her up and I guess tech. she is only a nurse with phsycology as her specialty. However, there is something about her that I feel like I could tell her more than others. Also the first time I went into this place they had me fill out all of these survey test things. Well I lied when I filled them out cuz I didn't want to get checked for anything but ADHD. So I lied about my past and everything. Should I tell her I lied and ask her if I can re-take them? Or does this make me look like I am just looking for attention?
Posted 1/4/2010 3:22 PM (GMT 0)
IMHO, I would go back to this practioner and tell the truth, all of it and you will then be able to establish a trust relationship. I think it would be a great help for you to be upfront and honest about how you feel and the fact that you quit your medications.


I know this will be hard for you but I have a feeling that you will be able to do it and in the end hopefully you will feel much better and find the help you need to deal with your old demons too.



Gentle Hugs



Kitt
Posted 1/4/2010 3:24 PM (GMT 0)
I'm really sorry to hear about what you went through. I can't even begin to imagine what it must be like. I'm sure it affects you more than you realize, though.

Regarding your last question, you should always be honest with your doctors. As difficult as it may be, try to be totally honest. You can't compartmentalize because they need to see as much of the big picture as they can.

Best wishes.
Posted 1/4/2010 4:15 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks everyone!!! :) I am still working on getting the courage to go in. But I think this is helping me gain it faster!!
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