debaser - Thank you so much for taking time to respond to my post. While I'm not glad you had to deal with similar issues it is comforting to know that someone else know what I'm going through. Sometimes I feel so alone and I know my family and friends are tired of hearing me complain. They just think everything should be great for me after the gallbladder removal. Well, things are worse on a day-to-day basis now and they don't understand what I'm dealing with. Like I knew before surgery, your gallbladder is there for a reason and I didn't want to have mine out. Just didn't really have any other options I thought.
I had been dealing with some slight stomach issues since August. At the end of October is when I started having the gallbladder attacks. Had 3 of those in a month before having my gallbladder removed in December. Even after the first gb attack, at the time was the worst pain I'd ever experienced, I still didn't go to the doctor. Just kept hoping that maybe everything would just miraculously go away. No such luck and after the 2nd one I knew that I was going to have to deal with this in spite of my fear of going to doctors. It was the most excruciating pain, thought I was going to die, and had the phone in my hand about to call an ambulance when it subsided.
I'm not the type of person to run to the doctor over every little thing. Always had a huge fear of doctors so I avoid them if at all possible. Now I've had numerous doctor visits and had surgery and still don't feel well at all. No one else seems to know how scary and frustrating that is. My fear is, like what you said, that I'm going to be stuck trying to live like this.
Wednesday is my follow up appointment where I will find out the results of the upper endoscopy. In realization, I'm not going to go away from that appointment feeling good about whatever the doctor says. Either they found nothing really wrong, therefore nothing that should be causing the degree of discomfort I'm having. So what will I do then? On the other hand they did find a lot of damage to my esophagus - obvously would indicate the meds aren't helping (tried Prilosec, Nexium, and Prevacid) - so then what? Either way I'm still going to have more questions than answers. If he says nothing is seriously wrong, will that mean anxiety is causing a lot of the symptoms? If there is damage, even while taking medication and eating right, does that mean my acid reflux could be caused by anxiety? Will I need to have more tests done to determine what's going on? Gosh, I hate waiting on appointment but like I said, I'm not going to be satisifed regarless of what he says.
It's ironic that you mentioned Barrett's esophagus because I swear I heard one nurse tell another that I had it. Granted I was just waking up and was still groggy from the meds. That totally freaked me out. There is one problem that I had prior to the gallbladder removal that I failed to mention to my doctor. In July and then again in September, I had pretty bad pain at my breastbone and in my back, just a few minutes after consuming just one alcoholic beverage. Happened again in January and March, those were the only 4 times I had a drink, and my doctor thought the pain was caused by acid reflux when drinking. If that's the case I've been having acid reflux for 10 months now and didn't even know it until the last few months? I've only had heartburn a couple times!
You said it may take a while for things to get back to normal after the gallbladder surgery. I keep hoping that just maybe things will start to improve but it only seems to get worse. I just feel like crying which is so totally not me. With what I'm going through now, there is no way I can live like this for the rest of my life. Just accepting that this is the way things are gonna be, after the gallbladder removal, just doesn't seem possible to me at this point. This is all so scary to me and worrying me a ton. Not only do I keep wondering if something serious is wrong I also keep thinking what if all of this is just in my head, which is even more frustrating.
Again, thank you so much for taking time to respond. It really helps to have someone that understands. I'll probably be posting more about this but I've gotta go get ready for work now. Hope you have a good day!