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Posted 10/1/2010 12:14 AM (GMT 0)
Hi

I just noticed that new people to this forum are supposed to start a thread before responding to other posters. I think I already posted on 2 other people's threads....sorry. So anyway, here I am, and here is a little about me....or a lot about me....not sure how much I will go on and on. :-)

I have suffered with anxiety, depression and OCD for over 30 years. I started with panic attacks in high school, and progressed to OCD, then major depression in my early 20's. I have been hospitalized at least 15 times during the past 25yrs (last time was in May of this year). Eight years after getting OCD, I was finally diagnosed properly, and did therapy. I'm doing very well in that area now.

I still have trouble with depression and anxiety. Stress can really cause my anxiety to skyrocket. I am on medication for it daily. My husband and I are going through bankruptcy right now because of a crooked ex-business partner who stole all the money, fled the country, and left the bills for us. We are losing our home and everything because of it. I feel like I've been in varying degrees of an anxiety/panic attack for 2 years over this whole thing. It's been a horrible roller coaster ride.

I should say that my husband now has a job, and housing is provided with this position, so we will not be out in the street. But the court cases from the vendors loom, and waiting for the bankruptcy to go through is very difficult. Many glitches along the way.

I am waiting on a hearing for disability as I also have Fibromyalgia. Right now, the anxiety is my biggest trouble and last wednesday I about crawled out of my skin I was in such a panic over my husband having to go to court again. Things turned out fine and the last few days have been much better. Strangely enough, I've had this for so long that I've learned to live with it. I don't know if that makes sense. Anyway, thanks for reading this far....and I hope to be able to help others and make friends here, and also get some help and understanding on my tough days.

 

Posted 10/1/2010 4:47 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Myjoy, welcome and thanks for sharing your story. Yes, this is a great place to unburden with people who understand. It does sound like you have a lot to contend with right now. I am really sorry to hear of your situation. I struggle with anger when people take advantage of me, and that can trigger anxiety so I completely understand the stress you must be under. (try to take time for yourself-meditate, breathe, exercise and rest.) You will make many friends here who will share in the good days and the bad ones. Glad you're here!
Scaredy Cat
Posted 10/1/2010 10:26 AM (GMT 0)
Thanks for the welcome, Scaredy Cat. Yes, I've learned through the years that I have to treat myself with care. Also, I try hard not to be bitter towards my husband's old business partner - it would only hurt me. Thanks again for your kind words.
Posted 10/1/2010 2:33 PM (GMT 0)
myjoy

 

Thank you so much for sharing your story with us.  I know exactly what you mean when you said  " I about crawled out of my skin I was in such a panic "  I have been in that same place and last week was one of them.  I finally had to see my PCP as I was overwhelmed.  Then I went home and just shut down and pampered myself,  read books and let everything else go. 

Stick with us as we know where your coming from and what you going through.

A warm welcome to the A & P forum.

Kindly,

Kitt

Posted 10/1/2010 4:38 PM (GMT 0)
Welcome myjoy. 30 years is a long time and it's unfortunate/sad that you weren't properly diagnosed for the first 8. Unfortunately that's the case with a lot of people suffering with A/P. But I'm glad that despite the struggles, you're able to recognize and acknowledge some positives such as your husband having a job and having housing. It won't cure the anxiety, but consciously remembering the positives when your mind seems to only be able to recall the negatives can help the anxiety from getting worse.
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